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I miss Johnny Petot so bad it hurts to wake up everyday and know he's not gonna be here. I avoided him for like a week because it hurt my heart just to talk to him and hear his voice and know he's hours away. But I think I pushed him away. Now he hasnt called in like over a week. I dunno what to do :( But all I know theres a huge piece of my heart sitting in Columbus fucking Ohio.
With that said, an update of the past few days...
Monday.+.
Ellen called and wanted to know if I wanted to trip it with her to big ol' Martin County. Sooo I got ready, she swooped me up, we ran around forever. I feel really bad for her. I know she's goin thru a rough place right now. She's gotta alotta shit smackin her in the face all at once. I know all too well how that feels. I hope everything turns out for the best and if it don't she makes the best of what turns out. <3 ya Elle!
After she dropped me off at my hizzy I freshened up and went over to Jessicas. Then me, Ty and Jess ran around for a while. I came home fairly early, like 10 or so.
Shane came over and we hung out for like ever. Watched Kill Bill 2 and Donnie Darko. Fun stuff. He's soooo cute! I really think I'm crushin on him. But he lives in Pikeville, and I live here, and I know thats not THAT far away but its far enuff that he can't be here in a hop skip and a jump and I hate that. IDK, distance is always a factor. Maybe thats just all in my mind???
Yea. So.
Tuesday.+.
Got up at the crack ass of dawn. Like 8am. Had a dr's appointment at 9:45. Yea, so, went, did my thing, then went 2 see Shane between classes. We ate lunch and had a heart to heart about some things. Theres something I'm going thru and I don't want people to know, and the people that do know, havent' had very encouraging words. There just kinda like UM and don't know what to tell me. I guess I'm looking for one word someone can say to make it all better, but yea in this life it doesn't work that way! But yea I was all weird about tellin' him but I did and I couldn't be happier with my decision. He said so many things that just lifted this huge burden off of me, and I am sooo greatful. No, he didn't make it all go away, if he did he would be playing GOD but he did help more than I could imagine. He is just everything. I'm loving it! <3
After we ate he went back to his next class and I went by Jenny Wiley to talk to my dads friend Lisa about getting a job there for the next few months!!! YAY lol I have to go back one day next week and talk 2 her more.
I came home and changed clothes, got my grandmamas credit cards and went to Peebles Maurices, and Dawahares! I got a pair of Lucky jeans, a pair of Silvertabs, a totally cute bright pink sheer like hoodie, a orange, pink and light pink stripped RL sweater, a white RL tank top, this black skirt w/ vertical pink lines and a jagged hem, a skirt with like 2 tears of ruffles, its like black, and a black shirt made the same as the skirt, with ruffles, and it has pink flowers on it. Thennn I got some RL Romance. Yum I love it! Did pertty good. I have more clothes than I know what to do with though. Shew, anyone need some? lol
After I shopped I went and picked up Kita from school and we ran around forever. All of a sudden on the way to Jessicas my car started goin "Vroom, Vrooooooom, Vroom" but it wouldnt get any gas and go. So I was like WTF. I checked the oil, and it was fine, so I drove on 2 Jessicas and it did it the whole way. I was freakin. I got there, parked it, and called dad to come get me, or follow me home. Derek came by in the meantime and drove it down the road and kept tellin me I was crazy cause nothin was wrong with it. BULLSHIT! lol. He's Derek, Superman and all but no damn mechanic :) lol I love him though. But yea so dad followed me home, and I parked it. Today he fixed it. He changed the oil and put a new fuel filter on. I hope its fixed ne way lol!
When I got home last nite I fell asleep at like 8pm. I slept till like 12 and when I woke up I saw that Shane had called 50 11 times, so I got on ICQ to see if he was online, but he wasnt, and he wasnt answerin his house or the cell. I pissed around till like 3 and went back to sleep, woke up at like 2:30 today and saw that Shanes called a billion more times. He left the sweetest msg. on the answerin machine! Aw love it :) But I've yet to talk 2 him lol :( We keep playin phone tag, grr I hate that!
So yea I can't wait till this weekend! Me and my gurls and gonna hang out Friday, I might do something with Shane for a while as well. But Saturday, Jessica, Kita, Tyler and maybe Holly and I are goin to Lex. YAY! :) I miss my boys already! I want Shane to go but he wont, but then he stays here and gets jealous as fuck. ? :(
Man, like okay. This is gonna sound crazeeee just go with me.
I feel sooo fucking loving right now. Like I could walk up to my worst enemy and give'em a frickin hug. Ecstasy gives you a euphoric feeling, your really, um whats the word..Empathetic. You care so much about yourself, your friends, your surroundings. You just care. But I thought after the roll was over it'd go away. But no, I still feel it. I feel like I want everyone to get along, and love each other, and be happy. Like thinkin about the bigger picture in life. I've found myself in the past few days just callin someone to say "Hey, How are you, Is everything okay?" or trying to fix problems with past relationships/friendships that have fucked up. It's crazeeee I told ya it would be. But I love it. I do and I love you :) <3!!
With that said, an update of the past few days...
Monday.+.
Ellen called and wanted to know if I wanted to trip it with her to big ol' Martin County. Sooo I got ready, she swooped me up, we ran around forever. I feel really bad for her. I know she's goin thru a rough place right now. She's gotta alotta shit smackin her in the face all at once. I know all too well how that feels. I hope everything turns out for the best and if it don't she makes the best of what turns out. <3 ya Elle!
After she dropped me off at my hizzy I freshened up and went over to Jessicas. Then me, Ty and Jess ran around for a while. I came home fairly early, like 10 or so.
Shane came over and we hung out for like ever. Watched Kill Bill 2 and Donnie Darko. Fun stuff. He's soooo cute! I really think I'm crushin on him. But he lives in Pikeville, and I live here, and I know thats not THAT far away but its far enuff that he can't be here in a hop skip and a jump and I hate that. IDK, distance is always a factor. Maybe thats just all in my mind???
Yea. So.
Tuesday.+.
Got up at the crack ass of dawn. Like 8am. Had a dr's appointment at 9:45. Yea, so, went, did my thing, then went 2 see Shane between classes. We ate lunch and had a heart to heart about some things. Theres something I'm going thru and I don't want people to know, and the people that do know, havent' had very encouraging words. There just kinda like UM and don't know what to tell me. I guess I'm looking for one word someone can say to make it all better, but yea in this life it doesn't work that way! But yea I was all weird about tellin' him but I did and I couldn't be happier with my decision. He said so many things that just lifted this huge burden off of me, and I am sooo greatful. No, he didn't make it all go away, if he did he would be playing GOD but he did help more than I could imagine. He is just everything. I'm loving it! <3
After we ate he went back to his next class and I went by Jenny Wiley to talk to my dads friend Lisa about getting a job there for the next few months!!! YAY lol I have to go back one day next week and talk 2 her more.
I came home and changed clothes, got my grandmamas credit cards and went to Peebles Maurices, and Dawahares! I got a pair of Lucky jeans, a pair of Silvertabs, a totally cute bright pink sheer like hoodie, a orange, pink and light pink stripped RL sweater, a white RL tank top, this black skirt w/ vertical pink lines and a jagged hem, a skirt with like 2 tears of ruffles, its like black, and a black shirt made the same as the skirt, with ruffles, and it has pink flowers on it. Thennn I got some RL Romance. Yum I love it! Did pertty good. I have more clothes than I know what to do with though. Shew, anyone need some? lol
After I shopped I went and picked up Kita from school and we ran around forever. All of a sudden on the way to Jessicas my car started goin "Vroom, Vrooooooom, Vroom" but it wouldnt get any gas and go. So I was like WTF. I checked the oil, and it was fine, so I drove on 2 Jessicas and it did it the whole way. I was freakin. I got there, parked it, and called dad to come get me, or follow me home. Derek came by in the meantime and drove it down the road and kept tellin me I was crazy cause nothin was wrong with it. BULLSHIT! lol. He's Derek, Superman and all but no damn mechanic :) lol I love him though. But yea so dad followed me home, and I parked it. Today he fixed it. He changed the oil and put a new fuel filter on. I hope its fixed ne way lol!
When I got home last nite I fell asleep at like 8pm. I slept till like 12 and when I woke up I saw that Shane had called 50 11 times, so I got on ICQ to see if he was online, but he wasnt, and he wasnt answerin his house or the cell. I pissed around till like 3 and went back to sleep, woke up at like 2:30 today and saw that Shanes called a billion more times. He left the sweetest msg. on the answerin machine! Aw love it :) But I've yet to talk 2 him lol :( We keep playin phone tag, grr I hate that!
So yea I can't wait till this weekend! Me and my gurls and gonna hang out Friday, I might do something with Shane for a while as well. But Saturday, Jessica, Kita, Tyler and maybe Holly and I are goin to Lex. YAY! :) I miss my boys already! I want Shane to go but he wont, but then he stays here and gets jealous as fuck. ? :(
Man, like okay. This is gonna sound crazeeee just go with me.
I feel sooo fucking loving right now. Like I could walk up to my worst enemy and give'em a frickin hug. Ecstasy gives you a euphoric feeling, your really, um whats the word..Empathetic. You care so much about yourself, your friends, your surroundings. You just care. But I thought after the roll was over it'd go away. But no, I still feel it. I feel like I want everyone to get along, and love each other, and be happy. Like thinkin about the bigger picture in life. I've found myself in the past few days just callin someone to say "Hey, How are you, Is everything okay?" or trying to fix problems with past relationships/friendships that have fucked up. It's crazeeee I told ya it would be. But I love it. I do and I love you :) <3!!