disbelief again

[suffocatdbarbie]

i never thought this would happen... ever ever.

i had it solid in my mind that we were done.

yet you pull another fast one...

last night was completely unexpected.

my heart wants to jump for joy but my mind knows better.

my heart still feels the pain of earlier

that pain that ran so deep.

but seeing your smiling face makes it want to forget.

You make me smile.

going from feeling so worthless, so disposable, so unwanted
to this...

it's so weird to feel equally happy and scared shitless at the same time.

guard is up.

just take it slow..