ugh!
why the fuck do i just seem to bring out the asshole in boys? its sooo frustrating! i have boys that seem interested and bam! with in an instant that changes! and why is it that they can look me straight in the eye and lie! it drives me crazy. last weekend jesse did that. looked straight in my eye and actually made me pitty him. just to 2 seconds later find out that it was all a lie!!! its fucking crazy! i went out side to deck him but he had left. im just soooo sick of it! im not a horrible person and i don't think i deserve this! this weekend if i see him i will probably deck him. i don't even care at this point of the consequences! its really pathetic!