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right, well i have to write this and get it out of the way so i can do my essay later...this will go as soon as jools sees it and funks it up with me.
well despite us talking like once a month i still feel like you're my best friend. You're probably only 1 out of 3 people that knows absolutely everything about me, and i wish that because of that there wasn't this distance. we went through a lot together and i think about you everyday. I try not to but you seem to get into my mind somehow because something always reminds me of you. I still get butterflies in my stomach just by thinking of you and writing all this down. and yeah i still love you..i've tried to hate you, really i have, but i guess i just can't. Not when you've done so much for me. You make me smile and you make me laugh and you're just the perfect friend all rolled up into one and i love that about you..and i miss you. people tell me that i should hate you or really dislike you, bu i've never felt what i feel fo you, for anybody, ever. i wish you would have seen how much you meant to me, because i know i meant a lot to you. im crazy for thinking this way but no guy really does compare to you, not when you were my everything for so long..and we had so many good times together, there's so many memories. the only way i know how to be truely happy is when we're friends..part of me sometimes wishes we never got together because we could still be proper friends right now..but that's just stupid because 2003 was one of the best years of my life. I've never felt so much love for someone, and only them, and thought that they were the most gorgeous human being in the world..and everyday spent with you was the most special day, and it got better each time. you just make me feel complete and you're the most wonderful guy i've ever known. If there was any way i could make what we have now better, i would. because my love is for keeps with my hopeless romanticism. you probably know i still feel this way, but i just needed to write it all down.
nyeh, who am i kidding, this is frustrating.
well despite us talking like once a month i still feel like you're my best friend. You're probably only 1 out of 3 people that knows absolutely everything about me, and i wish that because of that there wasn't this distance. we went through a lot together and i think about you everyday. I try not to but you seem to get into my mind somehow because something always reminds me of you. I still get butterflies in my stomach just by thinking of you and writing all this down. and yeah i still love you..i've tried to hate you, really i have, but i guess i just can't. Not when you've done so much for me. You make me smile and you make me laugh and you're just the perfect friend all rolled up into one and i love that about you..and i miss you. people tell me that i should hate you or really dislike you, bu i've never felt what i feel fo you, for anybody, ever. i wish you would have seen how much you meant to me, because i know i meant a lot to you. im crazy for thinking this way but no guy really does compare to you, not when you were my everything for so long..and we had so many good times together, there's so many memories. the only way i know how to be truely happy is when we're friends..part of me sometimes wishes we never got together because we could still be proper friends right now..but that's just stupid because 2003 was one of the best years of my life. I've never felt so much love for someone, and only them, and thought that they were the most gorgeous human being in the world..and everyday spent with you was the most special day, and it got better each time. you just make me feel complete and you're the most wonderful guy i've ever known. If there was any way i could make what we have now better, i would. because my love is for keeps with my hopeless romanticism. you probably know i still feel this way, but i just needed to write it all down.
nyeh, who am i kidding, this is frustrating.