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Crazy few days...
"When everythings made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am"..
"And you can't fight the tears that aint coming, or the moment of truth in your lies"
Goo goo dolls suck.. but this song.. is wicked.I'm a metal girl and all.. but this song is fantastic.
Im drunk. Just got home from a rad night out. Went to nicks tonight for his bday 19th drinks. Then went to town. I'm drunk as hell. It's 5am. Thats okay haha. Marty is crashed out on my bed behind me. Varouis people are scattered around my house. It is all good.
Some crazzy shit happened last night.. appolise for my drunken typing.
My ex bf.. who i was with for an insane like 3 years or something. Told mew last night the reason why him and his new gf broke up (We've been broken up for 7 months or so)... was because he told her he still loved me.. couldnt stop thinking about me.. called her Eryn etc etc..
Thinks we could make it work.
I was so stoned last night when he told me this.. fully couldnt kinda handle it.. becuase i'm so happy now and okay with being single and dont intend on having a realationship.
He thinks things can be different.
He said i was the best gf hed ever had.. an amazing chick etc etc..
But its all so isnane for me.. i had no idea he still cared that much about me.. because i wanted to be mates.. but he wouldnt give that ago..
And he thinks he cahnged.. matured etc... he's older than me.. but i kinda seem to have it more toghther than him.
And i do miss him so fucking much.. like insanly. But i think things would be the same.. and i managed to get out of that alive last time.. dunno if i can handle it again..
"Love is sucide" Billy COrgan - Bodies.. smashing pumpkins.
I love that band.
I dunno.. its insane. No one can make me feel as goood as he does, make me laughas much.. i've never met a guy that's that good hahaha ;) he's so smart, and just argh.
but i dunno.
He's seemed to change in the fact that hes keen to be friends, because he wants me in his life, no matter what kinda of way. I dunno.. its all nutty
I'm drunk as hell and its freaking me out.I talked to him today. he didnt take anything back which was cool, and wants to hang out.
I miss him so much, but i think things would still be the same.I guess we'll just have tosee.
I mean, i've had like, realationships and random little things going on with varouis peeople since we broke up.. but nothing like what we had. ANd i do miss him.
Argh
FUCKING BOYS
WHAT THE HELL!?!
Hahha.
We'll just be friends. I don' tknow
i just..
argh
I don't know.
Crap. I need water.And food.Haha.My drunken-ness fails.
I punched 3 guys in the face tonight.
Idon't know why haha.
One had dreads and said something about banging me. SO i punched him :S
I've been very uptight.
Arhg.
well yes
time for bed
much to drunk for this crap.
Nigth all
LOVE YOU NIKKI! HAPPY BDAY HUNNY BUNNY!
"When everythings made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am"..
"And you can't fight the tears that aint coming, or the moment of truth in your lies"
Goo goo dolls suck.. but this song.. is wicked.I'm a metal girl and all.. but this song is fantastic.
Im drunk. Just got home from a rad night out. Went to nicks tonight for his bday 19th drinks. Then went to town. I'm drunk as hell. It's 5am. Thats okay haha. Marty is crashed out on my bed behind me. Varouis people are scattered around my house. It is all good.
Some crazzy shit happened last night.. appolise for my drunken typing.
My ex bf.. who i was with for an insane like 3 years or something. Told mew last night the reason why him and his new gf broke up (We've been broken up for 7 months or so)... was because he told her he still loved me.. couldnt stop thinking about me.. called her Eryn etc etc..
Thinks we could make it work.
I was so stoned last night when he told me this.. fully couldnt kinda handle it.. becuase i'm so happy now and okay with being single and dont intend on having a realationship.
He thinks things can be different.
He said i was the best gf hed ever had.. an amazing chick etc etc..
But its all so isnane for me.. i had no idea he still cared that much about me.. because i wanted to be mates.. but he wouldnt give that ago..
And he thinks he cahnged.. matured etc... he's older than me.. but i kinda seem to have it more toghther than him.
And i do miss him so fucking much.. like insanly. But i think things would be the same.. and i managed to get out of that alive last time.. dunno if i can handle it again..
"Love is sucide" Billy COrgan - Bodies.. smashing pumpkins.
I love that band.
I dunno.. its insane. No one can make me feel as goood as he does, make me laughas much.. i've never met a guy that's that good hahaha ;) he's so smart, and just argh.
but i dunno.
He's seemed to change in the fact that hes keen to be friends, because he wants me in his life, no matter what kinda of way. I dunno.. its all nutty
I'm drunk as hell and its freaking me out.I talked to him today. he didnt take anything back which was cool, and wants to hang out.
I miss him so much, but i think things would still be the same.I guess we'll just have tosee.
I mean, i've had like, realationships and random little things going on with varouis peeople since we broke up.. but nothing like what we had. ANd i do miss him.
Argh
FUCKING BOYS
WHAT THE HELL!?!
Hahha.
We'll just be friends. I don' tknow
i just..
argh
I don't know.
Crap. I need water.And food.Haha.My drunken-ness fails.
I punched 3 guys in the face tonight.
Idon't know why haha.
One had dreads and said something about banging me. SO i punched him :S
I've been very uptight.
Arhg.
well yes
time for bed
much to drunk for this crap.
Nigth all
LOVE YOU NIKKI! HAPPY BDAY HUNNY BUNNY!