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so, yesterday i get ready, take a shower, go to monikas. hang out with moni ali maria abe naanie jan colin tyler jesse megan and taran and anna for a bit.
(yay for putting a face to an email address.) i was in a really weird mood. just, it was weird. i dont know how to act around most of those people, especially megan and maria and moni. i dont know, i guess im just insecure. i blazed a little and that was.. gross. i hate smoking pot. its rather discusting. i hate smokeing cigarettes, they are even more discusting. so anyways. i felt like an outcast, colin and my eyes didnt even lock, or anything, he seems not to notice me but.. kay whatever. so i just followed nalanie. and when i came out of alis house (cuz i buzzed in to go to the bathroom or something) i heard everyone talking to colin about me. i just kind of, stood there, felt like crying. "shes fuckin 13." "pedafile" then someone yell "SHES RIGHT THERE" "shh." wow.. kayy. i walk up wih a blank lok on my face. colin goes, "taylor do you see me going out with you?" "...no.." ali goes, "but you phoned me telling me you were considering it" colin: " well yeah i was considering it look at taylor, shes a pretty girl." everyone looks at me. im just.. standing there with a blank look on my face as i think " obviously not pretty enough for you" i stand back from the weed and shit, some people go inside to eat cake, including colin, and i leave. this isnt funny anymore.
just fuckin love me.
and i need to know, everyone who reads this bullshit, do you like me? (im talking friends-wise) or am i just another annoying little 13 yr old. i need to know wether or not hanging out with you guys is worth it. or if im making a fool of myself.
so, everyone: do you like me.
(yay for putting a face to an email address.) i was in a really weird mood. just, it was weird. i dont know how to act around most of those people, especially megan and maria and moni. i dont know, i guess im just insecure. i blazed a little and that was.. gross. i hate smoking pot. its rather discusting. i hate smokeing cigarettes, they are even more discusting. so anyways. i felt like an outcast, colin and my eyes didnt even lock, or anything, he seems not to notice me but.. kay whatever. so i just followed nalanie. and when i came out of alis house (cuz i buzzed in to go to the bathroom or something) i heard everyone talking to colin about me. i just kind of, stood there, felt like crying. "shes fuckin 13." "pedafile" then someone yell "SHES RIGHT THERE" "shh." wow.. kayy. i walk up wih a blank lok on my face. colin goes, "taylor do you see me going out with you?" "...no.." ali goes, "but you phoned me telling me you were considering it" colin: " well yeah i was considering it look at taylor, shes a pretty girl." everyone looks at me. im just.. standing there with a blank look on my face as i think " obviously not pretty enough for you" i stand back from the weed and shit, some people go inside to eat cake, including colin, and i leave. this isnt funny anymore.
just fuckin love me.
and i need to know, everyone who reads this bullshit, do you like me? (im talking friends-wise) or am i just another annoying little 13 yr old. i need to know wether or not hanging out with you guys is worth it. or if im making a fool of myself.
so, everyone: do you like me.