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okay i just realized i have serious issues. Like man, i m such a jealous person, not jealous like guys and stuff but like friendship jealous. I hate being left out even if i did have a great time anyways, like i hate it that people move on and stop keeping i touch even though before we always did stuff together. Maybe im just a lil crazy but i cant help it, like if i hear that old friends of mine do something and i wasnt invited i get pissed even though i havent spoken to them in like months, i know its stupid cuz i dont invite them when i go out but thats because they dont know the people i go out with. Ahhhh i need to get over my bullshit but i cant help feeling hurt, oh well i guess i just have to move on and understand that if you dont talk to someone for months regardless if before you always hung out things change. ahhhhhh, im get so frustated cuz i know im being stupid but w/e im just a basket case. Like i get mad that they had a good time if i wasnt there, okay that came out wrong, i dont get mad that they had a good time, i just wish i would have been asked even if i wouldnt have gone. Weird yes, i know but w/e. Like damn i wish things didnt change, i wish things were the same as before and better, like i love the fact that ive made great friends lately but i wish i hadnt lost the ones i had before. Well i didnt lose them but you know, i wish i could have kept in touch with them, i mean i didnt really try but with school and work and more school i didnt really have time. i know theres always 5 minutes in the day but they are also very busy and our times dont match up.
okay im gonna stop now cuz im pissing myself off, seriously i need therapy and i need to get over myself. On a happier note, i had a really good time last nite with mike. it was nice to see him, since its been a while. We went to sunset, couldnt decide on a movies so we went to gameworks instead, i had a good time but man it was full of lil kids, wow, its scary how things change. Kids grow up too fast now, anyways then he showed me how to get to the AA arena and then we just drove around for a long time, After we stopped for some donuts and talked some more. Well atleast that the jist of it. At gameworks, i made him ride this pony thing, omg hilarious lol!!! and ofcourse i had to play the dancing game with him hehehehehe! as a friend of mine would say good times good times!!!
okay well enough babbling, i need to get ready for the ONYX HOTEL!!!!!!
okay im gonna stop now cuz im pissing myself off, seriously i need therapy and i need to get over myself. On a happier note, i had a really good time last nite with mike. it was nice to see him, since its been a while. We went to sunset, couldnt decide on a movies so we went to gameworks instead, i had a good time but man it was full of lil kids, wow, its scary how things change. Kids grow up too fast now, anyways then he showed me how to get to the AA arena and then we just drove around for a long time, After we stopped for some donuts and talked some more. Well atleast that the jist of it. At gameworks, i made him ride this pony thing, omg hilarious lol!!! and ofcourse i had to play the dancing game with him hehehehehe! as a friend of mine would say good times good times!!!
okay well enough babbling, i need to get ready for the ONYX HOTEL!!!!!!