Hello World
It’s nearing the end of November, and I am sitting, at a loss, over what has happened in 2021. It has not been a good year. It has been a nasty struggle.
My mental health has been shocking, made worse with a new-found inability to sleep. Add to that the improperly medicated rheumatoid arthritis, which has been building up over the last several years. It’s awful. I am in pain every single day, and my shitty mental health makes it hard to do stuff.
So, I have just floated along. Luckily my work has been understanding and helpful when I have had any problems. People help me when I can’t lift things because my hands are too sore. And I am able to take time out when I have panic attacks. I then feel that I am not able to do my job properly, so I get upset.
It’s all very annoying. And it leaves me with very little energy to do anything. I just seem to sit on my own and feel bad. I think it’s easy to just become overwhelmed. It feels endless.