Stressed
Today I am updating from work.
Why?
Because I am such a mood that when I go home that I can't seem do anything. I have a feeling at the moment where I am absolute useless. So anything that would motivated me AT ALL, gets ignored. I get sp down that I just can't see the point. Which is silly, because when I am busy, I don't feel so worthless. Particularly, when my brain doesn't have the chance to think. Today I am running about with pallets and such at work, and it is quite good. I am so busy all the time, that I don't have a chance to think shitty thoughts.
Frequently over the last few weeks I have been pondering whether anyone would miss me if I just wasnt here anymore. Nobody relies on me, noone would notice. And it feels, at this moment, that I would be one of these stories you'd here in the news where a decomposed dead body is found somewhere. And noone would know what happened, because noone wondered where I went.
Yep, I am in THAT kind of mood. Maybe it's a good thing work is keeping me so busy.
Why?
Because I am such a mood that when I go home that I can't seem do anything. I have a feeling at the moment where I am absolute useless. So anything that would motivated me AT ALL, gets ignored. I get sp down that I just can't see the point. Which is silly, because when I am busy, I don't feel so worthless. Particularly, when my brain doesn't have the chance to think. Today I am running about with pallets and such at work, and it is quite good. I am so busy all the time, that I don't have a chance to think shitty thoughts.
Frequently over the last few weeks I have been pondering whether anyone would miss me if I just wasnt here anymore. Nobody relies on me, noone would notice. And it feels, at this moment, that I would be one of these stories you'd here in the news where a decomposed dead body is found somewhere. And noone would know what happened, because noone wondered where I went.
Yep, I am in THAT kind of mood. Maybe it's a good thing work is keeping me so busy.