uh bill eh fy
so the first few days on my new medication kicked my ass, couldn't really do anything other than sleep and eat: but i guess i needed some unwanted sleep to catch up on. i haven't written in about a week, guess it's another one of those phases. i don't really have any idea what's going on in my life right now, other than the fact i'm breathing. it seems like everything occuring around me in a some forced whirlwind and i'm stuck in the middle, watching everybody talk their talk and do their own thang when i'm tripping all over the place trying to keep up with my own accusations of what's occuring. i really enjoy shows, but nobody ever goes.. i feel thats the way i like it though, i can sit and enjoy my music while tappin my feet and shakin my head (not having to worry about who i might run into or what they might think of me) even though i should probably not care either way. it's been raining for days and i haven't been able to skate, i guess that's a good thing cause my ankles are fucked. basically, i need new shoes cause my nikes smell like asshole and my vans don't have enough support so pretty much my bones just a been gridin on each other. i'm finally out of that phase, i don't know if it's my medication or just me. i feel i'll always have some feelings towards certain people, people that i'll never get close to, people that will always be an aquantience. maybe it's not such a bad thing.. but it's respectable people i'd like to surround myself with, and if it's dudes than it's dudes. if it's my gurls than it's my gurls. i really fucking hate the rain! but i'm getting used to this abilify, and the fact i'm bi-polar:
FYI
i have hypermania bi-polar disorder
it's not like the regular AGH I HATE EVERYTHING OMGz fuck you
it's more of the i have manic episodes where i'm so pumped on life, i do anything and everything without thinking of the consiquences. then i'll wake up and look back at what i did and realize WHAT THE FUCK did i just do? just thought i'd clear that up so you peoples don't thank i'm craziiiii even though i yam
FYI
i have hypermania bi-polar disorder
it's not like the regular AGH I HATE EVERYTHING OMGz fuck you
it's more of the i have manic episodes where i'm so pumped on life, i do anything and everything without thinking of the consiquences. then i'll wake up and look back at what i did and realize WHAT THE FUCK did i just do? just thought i'd clear that up so you peoples don't thank i'm craziiiii even though i yam