it's not like i think about it constantly
i am so confused. and of course it is about guys...
i hate it when i meet a new guy and we start talking a lot for the first week or so and then all of a sudden i feel as if they have just dropped me. they never email. call. and i do call them but it just makes me wonder that when i call them if they press the ignore button to me like the do to the other people that call them when we are hanging out...i am the one who gets screwed over. and if i lock up to a guy that i meet, they think i'm a bitch or something for not talking to them alot.
problem 1
i had a great last weekend. i spent a lot of time with him. but i could tell he wanted to go off and do other things but i knew i couldn't b/c my parents would want me to stay home for the night b/c i wouldn't be home the next night. then all of the next night, he hardly talked. i asked him if we wanted to get up do move around but he just sat there. calling and texting his friends. after, i have a feeling that he wanted to get completely smashed but since hwas driving he didn't (thank god). he claims that he had a good time, but i really don't think he did. i haven't really talked to him since then. i found up that he was going up to atl. i don't know for how long but i had no idea until one his friends told me. the last time i heard from hi was probably tuesday....i miss him. i really like him and care for him, but i can see how much he cares for me...
problem 2
i haven't talked to him in weeks. i miss him. i thought we were getting closer that one night he was over. lol...that night was amazing. but he kind of has me skeptical about him b/c of his past. i mean i don't judge people on their past but i mean i always wonder..wonder if he really has changed and that he doesn't mess with girls minds... i want to spend more time with him, but i don't know...i have called him but he never answers and it makes me sad...everytime i look over at the room, i laugh. how crazy we were...
fuck it...i'm tired of being pushed around!
i hate it when i meet a new guy and we start talking a lot for the first week or so and then all of a sudden i feel as if they have just dropped me. they never email. call. and i do call them but it just makes me wonder that when i call them if they press the ignore button to me like the do to the other people that call them when we are hanging out...i am the one who gets screwed over. and if i lock up to a guy that i meet, they think i'm a bitch or something for not talking to them alot.
problem 1
i had a great last weekend. i spent a lot of time with him. but i could tell he wanted to go off and do other things but i knew i couldn't b/c my parents would want me to stay home for the night b/c i wouldn't be home the next night. then all of the next night, he hardly talked. i asked him if we wanted to get up do move around but he just sat there. calling and texting his friends. after, i have a feeling that he wanted to get completely smashed but since hwas driving he didn't (thank god). he claims that he had a good time, but i really don't think he did. i haven't really talked to him since then. i found up that he was going up to atl. i don't know for how long but i had no idea until one his friends told me. the last time i heard from hi was probably tuesday....i miss him. i really like him and care for him, but i can see how much he cares for me...
problem 2
i haven't talked to him in weeks. i miss him. i thought we were getting closer that one night he was over. lol...that night was amazing. but he kind of has me skeptical about him b/c of his past. i mean i don't judge people on their past but i mean i always wonder..wonder if he really has changed and that he doesn't mess with girls minds... i want to spend more time with him, but i don't know...i have called him but he never answers and it makes me sad...everytime i look over at the room, i laugh. how crazy we were...
fuck it...i'm tired of being pushed around!