shit...
When i started my Emergency Response class
Chief Brakebill told us
"If this is what you really want, then this is the beginning of your career, the beginning of your future."
It didn't really hit me until i was taking the CPAT (canidates physical abilities test).
thats some scary shit.
=/
but!
im still confident.
cause without confidence i'll get killed, or kill somebody haha.
i ain't gonna lie, i'm gonna be a damn good EMT, then one of the best Paramedics.
what i know, i know, and what i can do, i do it best.
The only scary part is that im so young.
i'm already a certified professional rescuer. (haha that sounds funny)
but besides my career, in my personal life i'm so lost haha.
i'm still so young.
i just don't know.
i never do.
it's uncertainty that scares me the most.
i never know if i am or should be burning any bridges.
i just want to know whats gonna happen in my future.
i wanna know who or what is gonna be there.
if i could just have the answers, or at least some.
i don't care as much as i used to, thats good.
actually it's concentrating on school that helps me so much.
but then i go back to square one.
"what's after this?"
who what when where why?
boo hoo haha.
hahaha oh shit i caught myself again.
i know one thing.
i'm gonna live life one day at a time
just like everyone else.
whether i want to or not.
i feel a little better now.
fuck it. haha
Chief Brakebill told us
"If this is what you really want, then this is the beginning of your career, the beginning of your future."
It didn't really hit me until i was taking the CPAT (canidates physical abilities test).
thats some scary shit.
=/
but!
im still confident.
cause without confidence i'll get killed, or kill somebody haha.
i ain't gonna lie, i'm gonna be a damn good EMT, then one of the best Paramedics.
what i know, i know, and what i can do, i do it best.
The only scary part is that im so young.
i'm already a certified professional rescuer. (haha that sounds funny)
but besides my career, in my personal life i'm so lost haha.
i'm still so young.
i just don't know.
i never do.
it's uncertainty that scares me the most.
i never know if i am or should be burning any bridges.
i just want to know whats gonna happen in my future.
i wanna know who or what is gonna be there.
if i could just have the answers, or at least some.
i don't care as much as i used to, thats good.
actually it's concentrating on school that helps me so much.
but then i go back to square one.
"what's after this?"
who what when where why?
boo hoo haha.
hahaha oh shit i caught myself again.
i know one thing.
i'm gonna live life one day at a time
just like everyone else.
whether i want to or not.
i feel a little better now.
fuck it. haha