time blows

[suedehead_69]

i wanna grow up already.

i wanna be a successful firefighter/ paramedic.

i wanna save people, and feel i made a difference, a good one.

i wanna get off work, go home to the wife and kids, down a six pack, and tell them how much i love them.

i wanna teach the kids cool shit, like riding a bike, soccer or t-ball, and go to the games.

i wanna get romantic with the wife, knowing she loves me back, no confusion. be her puppet.

i wanna spoil my family with tons of gifts and cool shit.

i wanna chill with the same motherfuckin homies i have right now and kill some brews with them, while they blaze or something haha.

i wanna make memories, and grow old with em.

yeah corny i know, at least i know what i want in life. if i make it that far.

it's gonna be a bitch to get there tho, with shit i'm not gonna wanna go through, but have to, that is what i fear everyday.

i just want the time to go by fast and easy.

but i just have to wait, i never know what i'm waiting for, i never know what i'm setting myself up for.

disappointment probably, thats all i ever do.

i can never do anything right. thats what i fear everyday.

"what the fuck am i gonna screw up now?"

i have to have a family tho, and my job.

absolutely have to.

or else i will feel empty, empty like i always do.

empty like i always fear i will be.

grow up fucker.