still grieving after all this time...
Shana, today was a bad day. You have seemed to be on my mind alot lately, much more than usual which probably isn't a good sign of things to come. Perhaps it's the holidays coming up. Life is so hard to bear sometimes. Often it is so hard to even get up in the mornings, that is probably why I am not sleeping well. I have thought alot about life and death lately and how events can change a person drastically. Your death has been extremely hard to handle. It just seems like yesterday...the pain is so fresh and cutting to the soul of my being. I wish you were here to talk things over with. But your not and I have to try and go on alone, without you. If you wonder if we still think about you and miss you, yes we do everyday, always. Mom