Sunday was my Anniversary
I went to Philadelphia on Sunday to see the Phillies play, don't know why, just something to do. I have been in a major depression lately. I seem to be in a grey haze with no clearing in sight. This morning I saw my first lilac bush blooming, Lilacs blooming always remind me of Shana. Oh how I miss her. I just have a hard time believing that she is gone forever...Life is so much less fun now...so much predictable...I bought Brett a shirt that she would have loved. It said The thing wrong with normal people is that they are normal. I am wearing the shirt that says I'm the Evil Twin. It is bright red, Shana red. I hope this month is better than last, I am bearly holding on...my grip is loosening...I feel like I am falling into a dark void which has no escape and no light at the end of the tunnel. Pray for me...I need help right now just making it through another day. At least the sun is shining. Love you all, Sue