This isn't a happy day...
Today is the 2nd Anniversary of Shana's death and I still wonder why? I still have questions that go unanswered. I still have what ifs....A mother's job is to protect her children, but I obviously failed...Not one day goes by when Shana is not the first thing I think of when I awake, or the last thing I think of when I try to sleep at night. Sleep has never come easily, even more that she's gone. It is still hard to believe that she's not gone away to college, and will be here in the summer. The pain is still so raw, so deep. I guess it will never go away, just fade some in time...Spring is here, but you aren't. It is suppose to rain today, I guess it's fitting. Love you.