You Live. You Learn.
I should be asleep. I'll oversleep tomorrow. Which means I'll be late.
Gosh, i wish i could care sometimes.
seriously. because i just simply don't.
Today, I wanted friends. I hung out with emily and sara but it was short lived.
i love emily and sara but the friends i truly wanted to hang out with were unreachable. i hate it.
it used to be so simple. one phone call away. but not anymore.
and it just makes me want to give up.
i'm always here. and sometimes i think you forget that.
my phone number hasn't changed. and won't.
i go to your house and your not there.
i'm always trying. so don't blame us for not visiting you.
because we try. i try.
i can't talk to you anymore. your not the same. i think she was right when she told you that you changed over the summer. you did. your not the same cousin i remember. you say that your more blunt but i think it's more than that. once again i'm tired of trying.
and this post will be like the rest of them. i miss my junior year so bad i can't stand it. i can't grasp the fact that it's over and things will never be the same. i wish i was on my own. i can't stand having to be home at a certain hour. it's killing me and i never come home in time. i'm always late. then mom won't talk to me until the morning. i'm sorry i like to do things on my own.
i said that it wasn't for me. i haven't lied yet because i still don't know. but he's the only thing that's keeping me sane right now. because, loosing all the people close to me sucks. i said i wouldn't have feelings for you and i don't know how i changed but i did. i broke my own rule and now we're both going to be hurting. i'm going to be hurting real bad when you leave. and i'm not going to lie, i don't want you to go. yeah, i'm selfish. that's just my personality.
Gosh, i wish i could care sometimes.
seriously. because i just simply don't.
Today, I wanted friends. I hung out with emily and sara but it was short lived.
i love emily and sara but the friends i truly wanted to hang out with were unreachable. i hate it.
it used to be so simple. one phone call away. but not anymore.
and it just makes me want to give up.
i'm always here. and sometimes i think you forget that.
my phone number hasn't changed. and won't.
i go to your house and your not there.
i'm always trying. so don't blame us for not visiting you.
because we try. i try.
i can't talk to you anymore. your not the same. i think she was right when she told you that you changed over the summer. you did. your not the same cousin i remember. you say that your more blunt but i think it's more than that. once again i'm tired of trying.
and this post will be like the rest of them. i miss my junior year so bad i can't stand it. i can't grasp the fact that it's over and things will never be the same. i wish i was on my own. i can't stand having to be home at a certain hour. it's killing me and i never come home in time. i'm always late. then mom won't talk to me until the morning. i'm sorry i like to do things on my own.
i said that it wasn't for me. i haven't lied yet because i still don't know. but he's the only thing that's keeping me sane right now. because, loosing all the people close to me sucks. i said i wouldn't have feelings for you and i don't know how i changed but i did. i broke my own rule and now we're both going to be hurting. i'm going to be hurting real bad when you leave. and i'm not going to lie, i don't want you to go. yeah, i'm selfish. that's just my personality.