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So my life has basically... gone to shit. No, that's not the right phrase.
Life has been throwing shit at me pretty constantly lately, and it's been shitty to have to deal with it.
1. best friends = not best friends anymore. it really sucks that i put in so much, and i thought i was getting just as much back... but they just didn't care. at all.
2. college friend life = not really that great. i have friends, but there's nothing solid yet. I think I may have a potential group, hopefully, but I'm not really able to hang out with them lately, which sucks.
3. I'm in an incredibly complicated relationship situation. Kind of. I'm not in one, but I had thought I was. And then it went to shit out of nowhere. And he's kind of being an asshole. Granted, I'm being a bitch to him every once in a while, but I also kind of have a reason to be. Basically I'll never be good enough and I never should have tried in the first place, but he fooled me into thinking that I should. And now he keeps telling me things and doing the opposite.
All the time.
And someone told me he did that, but I didn't believe that person. I didn't think the person knew him well at all, but apparently the person did. I should have listened, but it was too late anyway. I had already been set up to be screwed over.
4. What I'm thinking about putting here is probably going to give some people a good "hahaha, she deserves it" bitchfest, and that really makes me hesitant to put it here. Because that just pisses me off that I even have to worry about it. So I'm not. Just know that it sucks big time and I'm going to be bored a lot because of it.
There's more little stuff that has spawned from these basic problems, but I'm too apathetic and lazy to think of it all and then type it up just so you all can laugh at my miserable life.
I think I'm doing pretty well overall. I haven't had a mental breakdown and I'm staying pretty optimistic for the most part. It's just hard to have everything and then suddenly have nothing. Especially when you didn't see any of it coming.
Life has been throwing shit at me pretty constantly lately, and it's been shitty to have to deal with it.
1. best friends = not best friends anymore. it really sucks that i put in so much, and i thought i was getting just as much back... but they just didn't care. at all.
2. college friend life = not really that great. i have friends, but there's nothing solid yet. I think I may have a potential group, hopefully, but I'm not really able to hang out with them lately, which sucks.
3. I'm in an incredibly complicated relationship situation. Kind of. I'm not in one, but I had thought I was. And then it went to shit out of nowhere. And he's kind of being an asshole. Granted, I'm being a bitch to him every once in a while, but I also kind of have a reason to be. Basically I'll never be good enough and I never should have tried in the first place, but he fooled me into thinking that I should. And now he keeps telling me things and doing the opposite.
All the time.
And someone told me he did that, but I didn't believe that person. I didn't think the person knew him well at all, but apparently the person did. I should have listened, but it was too late anyway. I had already been set up to be screwed over.
4. What I'm thinking about putting here is probably going to give some people a good "hahaha, she deserves it" bitchfest, and that really makes me hesitant to put it here. Because that just pisses me off that I even have to worry about it. So I'm not. Just know that it sucks big time and I'm going to be bored a lot because of it.
There's more little stuff that has spawned from these basic problems, but I'm too apathetic and lazy to think of it all and then type it up just so you all can laugh at my miserable life.
I think I'm doing pretty well overall. I haven't had a mental breakdown and I'm staying pretty optimistic for the most part. It's just hard to have everything and then suddenly have nothing. Especially when you didn't see any of it coming.