May 19, 2006 18:53
i dont know how to get this rock out of my heart..... people often use the expression that part of them is now missing and they have a hole in their heart but no i feel diffrent i feel...heavy. I hear in my head suck it up you've got it good but i cant seem to suck this back up
i cant
i cant
i cant
and while the party lingers on around me i feel ditached i feel helpless and i feel desperate. im not sure why this happens but in my world...yes MY world when it rains around here it pours.
this entry is not meant for any sort of attention at all so honestly dont bother calling me or commenting with a whats wrong lauren... the purpose of this update is to state im in super sensitive mode so try to be careful with your words for the next week at least. i appreciate prayers of wellness as well and thanks for the love of friendship<3