Remedial weekend, Hope, a burning chance..
I house sat for my aunt this week. She has a huge st.bernard name sugar. I tried playing with that dog but she nearly killed me. This thing weighs more than I do! I played the role of a huge couch potatoe for a day straight, which made me feel disgusting because I havent exercised in like 2 days or so. But atleast I watched quality programming. Fuse mainly, which by the way, My Chemical Romance did a live performance@10 on sat. Gerard sounded very unpracticed. He was off key most of the time, and had a hard time catching his breath from running around so much on stage and screaming stuff like,"Is everyone fucking rockin? YEAH!! NEW JERSEY! Thanks for giving me the fucking love!" I watched a two hour special on metallica. I think it was on Vh1. I cant seem to make myself watch Vh1 Classic. Poison came on with a wierd ass song and lost my attention. I drifted inbetween national geographic(megastructures) One of the episodes was about prisoners who attempted escape from Alcatraz. Those M effers were bright as hell. I like watching learning channels. Im one of those people who are pumped with tons of useless information. Maybe oneday, I can be on Jeopardy. God I love that show.
Im ready to start working. My life for a long period of time seemed to be stuck in a stalemate of depression and will-power. I would get anxious about an opportunity, then lose hope and drift back into a depressive play video game all day mode. Atleast I have a queen size bed to crash on now to nightmare my worries away. For the past week Ive been having bad dreams about tsunamis, death following me, and people getting arrested. All that is about to go away Im hoping. With my new job and all, Im hoping to get a new start. Speaking of new starts, that piece of crap buick I was driving is now just a memory. Im getting a new car! Its a Kia Rio. Black, cd player, power steering. Its a nice car. I just hope I wont let anyone down in keeping up with the payments. As soon as I get my medical bills and credit card paid off, Im going to try and get my apartment. I just hope things work out. Ive been stressing over this for a while, and its killin me. Putting away a pack a day of ciggarettes is my type of degenerative therapy. I hate the taste of them, and the smell, but dammit, that nicotine. It will get ya. Theres somthing that Ive always wanted to do, but never got around to even trying to do it. I want to model again. Now that Im thinner, I think I would have a nice chance at it. Who knows? Its just nice to have a goal to work towards. Why not add another cool little puzzle piece to the new start that Im building. Like I said before, I just hope everything works out for the best.
Im ready to start working. My life for a long period of time seemed to be stuck in a stalemate of depression and will-power. I would get anxious about an opportunity, then lose hope and drift back into a depressive play video game all day mode. Atleast I have a queen size bed to crash on now to nightmare my worries away. For the past week Ive been having bad dreams about tsunamis, death following me, and people getting arrested. All that is about to go away Im hoping. With my new job and all, Im hoping to get a new start. Speaking of new starts, that piece of crap buick I was driving is now just a memory. Im getting a new car! Its a Kia Rio. Black, cd player, power steering. Its a nice car. I just hope I wont let anyone down in keeping up with the payments. As soon as I get my medical bills and credit card paid off, Im going to try and get my apartment. I just hope things work out. Ive been stressing over this for a while, and its killin me. Putting away a pack a day of ciggarettes is my type of degenerative therapy. I hate the taste of them, and the smell, but dammit, that nicotine. It will get ya. Theres somthing that Ive always wanted to do, but never got around to even trying to do it. I want to model again. Now that Im thinner, I think I would have a nice chance at it. Who knows? Its just nice to have a goal to work towards. Why not add another cool little puzzle piece to the new start that Im building. Like I said before, I just hope everything works out for the best.