gahh!!

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ok so tyler is comming today and I feel like im on speed from being so fucking anxious, I can't stop shaking and I dont know why, I wasn't like this last week. my mom and I are finally talking again. she said that she didnt want me to go because its our last year together and she wants to make the best of it. I dont know why she couldnt have just said that to begin with. my internet was down all day yesterday which sucked harry balls and the power kept going on and off. I kept trying to watch a movie and everytime I would turn it back on the power would go off again. Finally I just said fuck it. I read like 40+ pages of this book that tyler is letting me borrow and it is really good, I couldn't put it down but I ended up falling asleep reading it, so I took a two hour nap. I woke up and Watched Requiem for a Dream for the first time..it was a really good movie, I liked it a lot but It was so fucking depressing I wanted to shoot myself after. and I had one of those weird days yesterday I didnt talk to tyler until 7:30 last night and it was only a 5 minute phone call, thats the last I have heard from him. so now im just sitting here waiting for his arrival and I am going insane!!! well id suppose I am out for now
Bullemia is the best diet ::inside joke::