and you will be happy to minute you try, but you dont try
hullo. its friday? my mom let me miss pratice this morning bc i was extremly tired from taking sleeping pills. lets see.....
i love alison. she just told me something really touching and im so glad were friends, and i wish i could say "ill be there for you" to ALL my friends, but i cant, bc im not gunna be there for you when you dont deserve it. actions speak louder than words...
last few days have been.. eventful? no more like annoying then fun then annoying then fun then just REALLY annoying for a long time. people are shitty. in general not specific. people are also oblivious and in denial. ANNYOING. i think the whole world is pmsing this week. if not then fucking, everyone get some anti depressants so we can all be gray together and not have any more drama. no, that would suck. its the bad that makes the good seem so much better, i guess..
i jsut remembered my dream. here goes.. i was in a big grassy field, and some girls from swimteam where there(the ones who are mean to me)and they were throwing nerfballs at me from about 10 ft away, but i was catching all of them, and they were surprized i could do it. then i started to run away from them (i love running in dreams)and they tried to follow, but got lost, then i got to this phone pole thing that went up forever. and i climbed it. when i got to the top, i was seriously fucking on top of the world, i could see clouds and the sun and everything was reddish purple and i couldnt even see land anywhere.i was on this tiny pole that was swaying in the wind and i was so small compared to the sun and the moon and the clouds. id have to say most beautiful thing ive ever seen(dreamed)and i was holding on trying not to fall bc it was windy, but then i let go and i fall, for-fucking seriously-ever. after ever, i remember feeling the wind and thinking it was the best thing in the world. and it was weird, bc i wasnt scared. i finally see land and i look next to me and there are 3 guys. i hold on to them and look over and see a hurricane coming out of the water. it was HUGE. and i land in the water and we all see it coming, and it goes right over us, and i thought i was going to die, and it was crazy. we were spinning and shit and everything was upside down and i felt it pull me up. then the hurricane was gone, i went into a cabin house type place, and i see my moms dead. suddenly i go back in time to when i was running in a field and i climb up the pole again and fall again, its beautiful again. peaceful is the word. then the hurricane comes again,and im inside it again and instead of going into a cabin, i run to the front and find my mom and grab her and i started crying, uncontrollably. and i remember thinking i had changed my future by not going into that house and now shes alive.
i dreamed i was in a hurricane and best friends with heaven last night. crazy
doesny exaclty fit the mood, but still, <3 pedophiles
i love alison. she just told me something really touching and im so glad were friends, and i wish i could say "ill be there for you" to ALL my friends, but i cant, bc im not gunna be there for you when you dont deserve it. actions speak louder than words...
last few days have been.. eventful? no more like annoying then fun then annoying then fun then just REALLY annoying for a long time. people are shitty. in general not specific. people are also oblivious and in denial. ANNYOING. i think the whole world is pmsing this week. if not then fucking, everyone get some anti depressants so we can all be gray together and not have any more drama. no, that would suck. its the bad that makes the good seem so much better, i guess..
i jsut remembered my dream. here goes.. i was in a big grassy field, and some girls from swimteam where there(the ones who are mean to me)and they were throwing nerfballs at me from about 10 ft away, but i was catching all of them, and they were surprized i could do it. then i started to run away from them (i love running in dreams)and they tried to follow, but got lost, then i got to this phone pole thing that went up forever. and i climbed it. when i got to the top, i was seriously fucking on top of the world, i could see clouds and the sun and everything was reddish purple and i couldnt even see land anywhere.i was on this tiny pole that was swaying in the wind and i was so small compared to the sun and the moon and the clouds. id have to say most beautiful thing ive ever seen(dreamed)and i was holding on trying not to fall bc it was windy, but then i let go and i fall, for-fucking seriously-ever. after ever, i remember feeling the wind and thinking it was the best thing in the world. and it was weird, bc i wasnt scared. i finally see land and i look next to me and there are 3 guys. i hold on to them and look over and see a hurricane coming out of the water. it was HUGE. and i land in the water and we all see it coming, and it goes right over us, and i thought i was going to die, and it was crazy. we were spinning and shit and everything was upside down and i felt it pull me up. then the hurricane was gone, i went into a cabin house type place, and i see my moms dead. suddenly i go back in time to when i was running in a field and i climb up the pole again and fall again, its beautiful again. peaceful is the word. then the hurricane comes again,and im inside it again and instead of going into a cabin, i run to the front and find my mom and grab her and i started crying, uncontrollably. and i remember thinking i had changed my future by not going into that house and now shes alive.
i dreamed i was in a hurricane and best friends with heaven last night. crazy
doesny exaclty fit the mood, but still, <3 pedophiles