Back to the dead zone!
i have to stop thinking that this is easy
i have to stop telling myself that i dont need to do this
that is he most ridiculous thing i have ever heard
of course i need to do it
i dont have a choice
noone here does
we will never be satisfied
never and it doesnt phase me i dont mind
i will only let myself down and it shows i dont love myself enough to want a change
played tennis for 1 1\2 hour with daddy
horse rode 1 hour
i am just about to do my abs hav already done thighs this morning
then maybe later on i will do my arms but only if i can stay awake
i have until the 2nd september...well i say that i have forever but my short term goal is to be down to 110 on the 2nd of september
but purging must not be forgotten i havent purged for 2 days and i lie awake at night knowing that i will have to pay for not doing it
did i yessssssssssss
scales gave me the numbers i didnt want to see
think thin
ps whom ever said that bulimics dont lose weight....might be mistaken i am bulimic as sure as hell lose weight
i have to stop telling myself that i dont need to do this
that is he most ridiculous thing i have ever heard
of course i need to do it
i dont have a choice
noone here does
we will never be satisfied
never and it doesnt phase me i dont mind
i will only let myself down and it shows i dont love myself enough to want a change
played tennis for 1 1\2 hour with daddy
horse rode 1 hour
i am just about to do my abs hav already done thighs this morning
then maybe later on i will do my arms but only if i can stay awake
i have until the 2nd september...well i say that i have forever but my short term goal is to be down to 110 on the 2nd of september
but purging must not be forgotten i havent purged for 2 days and i lie awake at night knowing that i will have to pay for not doing it
did i yessssssssssss
scales gave me the numbers i didnt want to see
think thin
ps whom ever said that bulimics dont lose weight....might be mistaken i am bulimic as sure as hell lose weight