in case you cared
so i got Michael a job back here in good old Salinas , making way more money than he would have been making in Arizona ..so its good because he will be closer and will be making more money. only downside; is having to say goodbye again when he does decide to leave.
i am really nervous about him coming back any how because im not so sure we will be together.. its like i really want to get back with him but im not sure about how he feels on everything. in a way i feel to him that i will never be quite what he is looking for and if thats the case than i have to ask myself if its really worth putting myself through this. and of course i would have to say yes and in the end i will probably end up getting majorly heartbroken and swear ill never do it again and then of course i will and the same thing wil happen. its such a stupid cycle i swear , but we all do it so there.
and as fas as other relationships go i find myself not really even remotely caring like i know i should be. i guess its gotten to a point in my life where you either are along for the ride with me or your not and i really dont give a flying fuck. be my friend or not. life is way to short for me to be concerned with what people thing about me so that is that.
oh and by the way i am postponing Halloween untill it is convienent for me.
thanks!
i am really nervous about him coming back any how because im not so sure we will be together.. its like i really want to get back with him but im not sure about how he feels on everything. in a way i feel to him that i will never be quite what he is looking for and if thats the case than i have to ask myself if its really worth putting myself through this. and of course i would have to say yes and in the end i will probably end up getting majorly heartbroken and swear ill never do it again and then of course i will and the same thing wil happen. its such a stupid cycle i swear , but we all do it so there.
and as fas as other relationships go i find myself not really even remotely caring like i know i should be. i guess its gotten to a point in my life where you either are along for the ride with me or your not and i really dont give a flying fuck. be my friend or not. life is way to short for me to be concerned with what people thing about me so that is that.
oh and by the way i am postponing Halloween untill it is convienent for me.
thanks!