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im home now. i came back to a world of shit... it couldnt have been a worse time. im a little worried about how things are going to be for me here.
home was good. i got to see (if not just for a second) all the people i wanted to. i wish certain arrangments would have followed through but i guess other things get in the way. i remembered all of my nights this time.
the worst thing about this most recent trip is that i dont think i can do it again... its too much stress on me to see all my friends and see how much ive missed them and how much i wish i could be there. i cant get these 5 years back. ever. so many parts of my life were torn apart by the mere fact that i wanted to do something with my life. well my life is where my friends are. and i honestly dont have any friends here... i have people i call my friends. but it is definately not the same. i have done way too much thinking today and im not in good shape. i really hope something happens to brighten my weekend or something.
im sunburned from PT today.
and i just realized that im really typing this for no reason. like 2 people read my crap. hello 2 people... talk to me sometime :) dont be strangers... well actually 3... you 3 people.
home was good. i got to see (if not just for a second) all the people i wanted to. i wish certain arrangments would have followed through but i guess other things get in the way. i remembered all of my nights this time.
the worst thing about this most recent trip is that i dont think i can do it again... its too much stress on me to see all my friends and see how much ive missed them and how much i wish i could be there. i cant get these 5 years back. ever. so many parts of my life were torn apart by the mere fact that i wanted to do something with my life. well my life is where my friends are. and i honestly dont have any friends here... i have people i call my friends. but it is definately not the same. i have done way too much thinking today and im not in good shape. i really hope something happens to brighten my weekend or something.
im sunburned from PT today.
and i just realized that im really typing this for no reason. like 2 people read my crap. hello 2 people... talk to me sometime :) dont be strangers... well actually 3... you 3 people.