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bleh.
driiinking.
i'm not good at essays.
only because i have so many thoughts and they're all so hard to organize.
the movie thing.
south eastern texas.
jeff does websites for people. mostly bands and artist, but this summer hopefully we'll expand his company to videos and movies.
he's made my day by saying " we" and meaning " you and i" ( me and him) as well as some Austin guy whom Jeff claims i'm going to fall in love with.
but i doubt it. since school is my main thing now.
But any way.
brief history,
jeff was my boyfriend from when i was 16-17, almost a year. saw him at cornerstone, we were in love. as in love as any midteen couple could be...i went back the next cornerstone... we were kinda.. in love.
i broke his heart some where in the middle of it all, he was too clingy.. too invloved.
i lied about lying, i lied about loving him, i lied about lying about loving him. all because i didnt know how to break up with him because i knew i wasnt good for him.
he still means very much to me, only because he's cared about me no matter what wrong i've done over the years. he's very bright, very creative, and never gives himself enough credit.
i always imagined we'd grow up and marry each other, but considering he's had a gf for the past year.. ( that happens to look exactly like me and him combined) i'll deal with him as a brother, a friend, a co conspirater.
any way.
for some reason.
i can't wait to sleep on his floor and take showers only tri daily.
i can't wait to throw myself into a visual project that has no limitations or inhibitions.
I can't wait to not worry about money, only the end product. I can't wait.
but i will.
driiinking.
i'm not good at essays.
only because i have so many thoughts and they're all so hard to organize.
the movie thing.
south eastern texas.
jeff does websites for people. mostly bands and artist, but this summer hopefully we'll expand his company to videos and movies.
he's made my day by saying " we" and meaning " you and i" ( me and him) as well as some Austin guy whom Jeff claims i'm going to fall in love with.
but i doubt it. since school is my main thing now.
But any way.
brief history,
jeff was my boyfriend from when i was 16-17, almost a year. saw him at cornerstone, we were in love. as in love as any midteen couple could be...i went back the next cornerstone... we were kinda.. in love.
i broke his heart some where in the middle of it all, he was too clingy.. too invloved.
i lied about lying, i lied about loving him, i lied about lying about loving him. all because i didnt know how to break up with him because i knew i wasnt good for him.
he still means very much to me, only because he's cared about me no matter what wrong i've done over the years. he's very bright, very creative, and never gives himself enough credit.
i always imagined we'd grow up and marry each other, but considering he's had a gf for the past year.. ( that happens to look exactly like me and him combined) i'll deal with him as a brother, a friend, a co conspirater.
any way.
for some reason.
i can't wait to sleep on his floor and take showers only tri daily.
i can't wait to throw myself into a visual project that has no limitations or inhibitions.
I can't wait to not worry about money, only the end product. I can't wait.
but i will.