thinking too hard hurts
i don't get why i feel like this. i don't think my cold is bad enough to make me feel this way. hmmm. maybe it's the stupid muscle relaxers they put me on. i feel like shit and i'm sick of it! bah.
i miss kev so much, it's almost unbearable. i swear he's all i ever think of or talk about. this is the worst situation i've ever been in relationship-wise. i wouldn't change it for the world, though. he needs to get his shit done. in the meantime i'll work on mine (:
i smoke waayyy too many cigarettes these days. i swear i smoke less than i did before, but it seems to still be alot. it's weird not smoking pot.. i should be used to it by now considering it'll be 9 weeks tomorrow, but i still miss it. it's not even that i get cravings for it or anything like that. i genuinely love smoking pot. it's been a part of me for years and i just stripped myself of it for the simple fact of it'll help if i'm sober as well when kev gets out. well, that and his mama's opinion kinda matters to me. i do want his family to like me, damnit! ehh. just gotta be me.. minus pot.
i just wish june would hurry up and get here already.