repeat after me "i am stable and free"...

[suckerpunch]

i needed somewhat of a fresh start. this journal unlike the ones is the past is not and will not be a documentary of depression but one of self realization. i discovered that as much as i know about myself i dont know who i am or what i want to become. i have ideas but ive been to busy trapped under the past to step out from under it and see what my future could hold if i would just let go. i tend to cherish the scars of the past and like to cut the wounds open over and over again. but this is it. im fed up and refuse to do it anymore. ive spent too much time determining who or what i hate and where everything went wrong but never enough time exploring the things i like and love.

so this is the beginning. this is my new start...