Uh, life?
"I'm stuck in a rut that I fell into by mistake"
I never update anymore but maybe I need to start getting my feelings in writing cause i'm well, stuck in a rut.
Kings Island sucked my life up this summer, as it always does. It was fun. I had a really awesome summer and I miss it. My friends and I created a family. We had a blast. But, we've been out of KI for almost 2 months now. The winter has been weird. I work a stupid pointless job at a kiosk in the mall. I feel like I am contributing nothing to the world, because i'm not. Here's the thing. All my life I wanted to teach. I went to school for four years, graduated cum laude, and here I am working a stupid retail job. I want to teach. More than anything right now, that is what I want. It's frustrating waiting for my license. I can't do anything but wait and get annoyed.
My social life has become monotonous. We do the same thing everyday and i'm getting tired of it. Friends have drifted away, one has moved away (but is thankfully coming back), one is irritating the hell out of me. If you want to be my friend, then let me be your friend. Stop closing me off and breaking plans with me. If you don't think you can hang out with me, then tell me don't tell me you can and then disappoint me when you can't (which you know will happen). Don't take advantage of me because I care about you. When I call, pick up the phone so I can talk to you about my life, I don't want to tell you everything through a text message. Don't tell me you can't hang out with us, but then have your other friends that aren't from work come over to your house. It hurts my feelings. I feel like you don't appreciate us. We are supposed to be a family. As Karrie read, "a family is a circle of friends who love you". We love you, so love us back. I don't want to drive around all night anymore. I want to hang out, talk, watch movies, be twentysomething and enjoy it. Yeah, we have fun, but there are others ways to have fun. I'm just sick and tired of getting aggrevated with you because you are so vague and distant sometimes. If you want us to understand what's going on in your life, then tell us. Don't expect us to be understanding if we don't know what the hell is wrong.
I want to teach.
I need to clean my room but can't find the motivation to do it.
At least i've read some good books lately.
I never update anymore but maybe I need to start getting my feelings in writing cause i'm well, stuck in a rut.
Kings Island sucked my life up this summer, as it always does. It was fun. I had a really awesome summer and I miss it. My friends and I created a family. We had a blast. But, we've been out of KI for almost 2 months now. The winter has been weird. I work a stupid pointless job at a kiosk in the mall. I feel like I am contributing nothing to the world, because i'm not. Here's the thing. All my life I wanted to teach. I went to school for four years, graduated cum laude, and here I am working a stupid retail job. I want to teach. More than anything right now, that is what I want. It's frustrating waiting for my license. I can't do anything but wait and get annoyed.
My social life has become monotonous. We do the same thing everyday and i'm getting tired of it. Friends have drifted away, one has moved away (but is thankfully coming back), one is irritating the hell out of me. If you want to be my friend, then let me be your friend. Stop closing me off and breaking plans with me. If you don't think you can hang out with me, then tell me don't tell me you can and then disappoint me when you can't (which you know will happen). Don't take advantage of me because I care about you. When I call, pick up the phone so I can talk to you about my life, I don't want to tell you everything through a text message. Don't tell me you can't hang out with us, but then have your other friends that aren't from work come over to your house. It hurts my feelings. I feel like you don't appreciate us. We are supposed to be a family. As Karrie read, "a family is a circle of friends who love you". We love you, so love us back. I don't want to drive around all night anymore. I want to hang out, talk, watch movies, be twentysomething and enjoy it. Yeah, we have fun, but there are others ways to have fun. I'm just sick and tired of getting aggrevated with you because you are so vague and distant sometimes. If you want us to understand what's going on in your life, then tell us. Don't expect us to be understanding if we don't know what the hell is wrong.
I want to teach.
I need to clean my room but can't find the motivation to do it.
At least i've read some good books lately.