Oct 15, 2008 00:59
I feel like livejournal might need to rally the troops, because the recession has clearly affected old lj. Or maybe it happened years ago. Who knows.
I was the last person on earth with a Xanga, so perhaps I'm just bad with trends.
I'm here two glasses of Chard in to studying GRE stuff and it isn't helping. If I wasn't able to focus on algebra/maths for four some odd years of high school, it's not gonna happen now, now that I've started self medicating.
I finally got my shit together and decided to apply for Phd programs. I feel like a few events happened that made me feel that this was completely necessary. One simply being that I would always have this weird anxiety about applying if I didn't just actually attempt it.
That said-
I have horrible anxiety now about my ability and confidence in this particular subject. I suppose everyone does.
I fear that this has caused me to become unnaturally reclusive. Or perhaps naturally? I've shirked all social duties in favor of my own self and my own nervousness. Last year I spent so much time seeking people and events out that now-now I've fallen down to my lowest energy state. This all feels like one long summer to me, and I hate summer.
All this whitey shit aside: I've had time to travel, think...wear my big grandpa pannies around the house all day long.
OH MAN! and last but not least: I was the last person on the earth to start liking the Wire. Shit guys, that show is good!
a white wine kind of drunk