more things about friends
well almost all of my friends screw me over and i just wanna die. ok this journal is gonna be long i think. well first off after me and ricky broke up and this bitch named Kalli started talkin shit about me and ricky was makin up stuff and tellin her shit, so i confronted her about it and started screaming at her and then duty aid came and was takin me to the office and as kalli was walking away with ricky and my friend joe, she called me a bitch and i said, " what the fuck did u say!?" and i ran after her and we hit eachother and shit. i backed away cuz i knew i wouldnt be able to walk or graduate if i would have kept hittin her. and ever since then ricky has tried to make my life a livin hell. vandalizing my car, and he is going out with a once good friend of mine. i hate her now that bitch. but mostly i hate him so much. and after that i got suspended. well after me and ricky broke up, me and jack started talkin again and he told me he loved me still and said sorry for everything, and we met a couple times and made out and it was like we loved eachother again. well he was with this girl and told me that he was gonna break it off with her. well we met again and shit and they werent together and i asked him y me and him werent goin back out and he said he was not ready and he wanted to be free of the responsibilites of havin a gf, and i understood that, so i was ok. well i find out he never left her and lied to me again, and stopped talkin to me again. theres screw over #3 becuz first there was ricky makin shit up about me, second was my friend goin out with ricky and 3rd was this jack thing. ok, so all my friends(the emo kids) stopped bein friends with me, well all except some. so theres screw over #4. ok, now i have this friend tara and now shes gonna go out with this guy i liked for 3 years. i told her i didnt care but really i do. but i gues its ok since im talkin to someone. ohhh i almost forgot another screw over. but i already told u about it, my friend choosin weed over friendship. yeah that sucks. and im a poor mother fucker. i have a job but its not cuttin it. i need a job. i have gained weight. i just feel like a trainwreck. i feel so horrible everything just sucks. and if u are still readin this then u are a good friend to sit here and listen to all my bullshit! lol. anyways ttyl bye