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Okay. I talked to my mom today about Joe She isnt making me break up with him she said "she honestly doesnt care anymore and I should be able to make my own decisons if I fail I have no one to fall upon but my self".I started crying cause he still isnt out.I miss him so much.Today I did some stuff that werent exactually the best things a girlfriend can do. No I didnt kiss anyone I just kind of flirted alot. But I didnt touch.
I also talked to her about my cutting situation. Brandon ad I had a talk after he saw the bllod on my shirt cause my wrist broke open. And he said that he used to be and he got help. he went into therapy.And My mom said she is going to try to get me in. It makes me happy that finally I am going to be okay and not have to worry.I know Brandon cares and I dont ever want to do anything to hurt him.I know I am going to get close to him. really close. I want to be close to him but its going to have to be his choice.
And the last thing. I also talked to her about Birth Control. just incase something happens Between Joe and me.She said she had already thought about it and was going to talk to me about it. Since she knows Joe is 17.
Now I am relieved that all this is off my chest maybe now I can rest and be okay with who I am. Maybe now I will get close to someone and not run. Maybe now I can be a true friend and not be such a bitch.Maybe now I can be myself and not have to worry who is watching. Good night<3
I also talked to her about my cutting situation. Brandon ad I had a talk after he saw the bllod on my shirt cause my wrist broke open. And he said that he used to be and he got help. he went into therapy.And My mom said she is going to try to get me in. It makes me happy that finally I am going to be okay and not have to worry.I know Brandon cares and I dont ever want to do anything to hurt him.I know I am going to get close to him. really close. I want to be close to him but its going to have to be his choice.
And the last thing. I also talked to her about Birth Control. just incase something happens Between Joe and me.She said she had already thought about it and was going to talk to me about it. Since she knows Joe is 17.
Now I am relieved that all this is off my chest maybe now I can rest and be okay with who I am. Maybe now I will get close to someone and not run. Maybe now I can be a true friend and not be such a bitch.Maybe now I can be myself and not have to worry who is watching. Good night<3