Thinking too much..
Wow. I just went to go wash up so I could change clothes b/c I felt icky and I got to thinking waaaay too much.
Need to be more independent and learn to do things just by myself.
Need to quit smoking b/c I'm feeling sick b/c of it and I already have weak lungs. Plus, I know whenever I do want to have a child, in say 10 yrs, I probably won't know that I'm pregnant and I don't want a retarded baby. I also spend way too much $$$ on ciggs.
I need to kick my butt into gear for school after I get my summer break.
I really miss Jason... like... you have no idea... I feel so stupid b/c of it.
I want someone to watch MirrorMask with me. I'm a chicken..
I can't wait for A-kon to hurry up and get here, but I'm afraid of not finding people to room with me and having to end up paying lots of $$$. Oh and Josh, I got a fridge for our room. It's 20$ for the whole stay.
Madam Masako's letting me borrow her zori and tabi. She's also giving me two free tickets for the next like 3 shows at Bass Hall. I'm excited. ^^;; (She's the lady that makes the costumes for Casa Man....however you spell that... wtf ever, lol.
Still worried about personal problems. Gonna get that fixed tomorrow.
Hung out with people today and felt lonely.
I need to learn to love my appearance more. I have days I feel ugly and beautiful, it's weird. I need my confidence back.
I miss Rachel. She's a really good friend, dunno where I'd be without her in my life..
I hate guys staring. It's disturbing.
I really need to be held... I need the reassurance that things will be all right. I miss having arms to go to.
Wow, I vented a bit...
I want to move out, but it's not happening so I should get over it. Just wished I lived closer to everyone else.
I want to go swimming, someone take me swimming! I have a new swimsuit and cover up to go with it. =(
I miss hangin' out with the guys.
I hope I'm a good person.. I think I am. I hope I'm worth it to someone.
Need to get up in the morning to put the car in for maintanence..
K, I'm done, sry for making it so long. Not like you guys will read all of it anyways, haha. <3
Leave me some love! I only get a couple people if at all commenting. Damns you all.
Need to be more independent and learn to do things just by myself.
Need to quit smoking b/c I'm feeling sick b/c of it and I already have weak lungs. Plus, I know whenever I do want to have a child, in say 10 yrs, I probably won't know that I'm pregnant and I don't want a retarded baby. I also spend way too much $$$ on ciggs.
I need to kick my butt into gear for school after I get my summer break.
I really miss Jason... like... you have no idea... I feel so stupid b/c of it.
I want someone to watch MirrorMask with me. I'm a chicken..
I can't wait for A-kon to hurry up and get here, but I'm afraid of not finding people to room with me and having to end up paying lots of $$$. Oh and Josh, I got a fridge for our room. It's 20$ for the whole stay.
Madam Masako's letting me borrow her zori and tabi. She's also giving me two free tickets for the next like 3 shows at Bass Hall. I'm excited. ^^;; (She's the lady that makes the costumes for Casa Man....however you spell that... wtf ever, lol.
Still worried about personal problems. Gonna get that fixed tomorrow.
Hung out with people today and felt lonely.
I need to learn to love my appearance more. I have days I feel ugly and beautiful, it's weird. I need my confidence back.
I miss Rachel. She's a really good friend, dunno where I'd be without her in my life..
I hate guys staring. It's disturbing.
I really need to be held... I need the reassurance that things will be all right. I miss having arms to go to.
Wow, I vented a bit...
I want to move out, but it's not happening so I should get over it. Just wished I lived closer to everyone else.
I want to go swimming, someone take me swimming! I have a new swimsuit and cover up to go with it. =(
I miss hangin' out with the guys.
I hope I'm a good person.. I think I am. I hope I'm worth it to someone.
Need to get up in the morning to put the car in for maintanence..
K, I'm done, sry for making it so long. Not like you guys will read all of it anyways, haha. <3
Leave me some love! I only get a couple people if at all commenting. Damns you all.