jesus
today has been a reasonably successful day as far as food goes - iv stil eaten WAY too much... but given the circumstances and my previous spell of uncontrollable b/p today was bearable.
what isn't bearable is caroline being a complete bitch. im tryna understand that shes just under pressure and im often cranky at her so she deserves a chance to repay the favour but it really hurts...
s for you says: (9:05:33 PM)
urghhhhhh muh throat is all gluggy... remind me to do stats in study 2moro
"the night that waned and waned and brought no day" says: (9:06:06 PM)
lol as if u will u dnt even in class
with this knife i'll cut out the part of me, the part that cares for you says: (9:06:39 PM)
i resent that... i DIDNT in class just today for the first time this whole year... and have a lil faith please
with this knife i'll cut out the part of me, the part that cares for you says: (9:07:00 PM)
mind u if u tell me i wont im gona be more likely to just to prove u wrong so...
"the night that waned and waned and brought no day" says: (9:07:36 PM)
yea my faith is fadin n its nt like ive told u 2 do it b4 n got totaly ignored
with this knife i'll cut out the part of me, the part that cares for you says: (9:08:03 PM)
uhm sorry?
"the night that waned and waned and brought no day" says: (9:09:12 PM)
jst letin u knw i do hve reasons for stuf i do
im not even sure why it hurt me so much but it was just such a cutting unneccessary thing to say... hmm... guess im a little shambolic atm too
i hate school with a firey fucken passion, i hate every girl in that place i need to get away from them - even my "friends" suck majorly... and now caroline is bein a slag too? i mean throw me a frickin bone here. i want to just pick up and move to a completely new country where is don't have to worry about the stupid politics of secrets and gossip and peer pressure.
o she made it better =D
the night that waned and waned and brought no day" says: (9:14:17 PM)
sori dnt mind me jst 1 of those days
"the night that waned and waned and brought no day" says: (9:14:19 PM)
again
still feeling the pressure to have sex and party and drink and be beautiful and skinny and charismatic and talkitive... or have any freakin qualities that would make me superior. thats why they're all gona be so humiliated when im 98. thats my new goal. 45kgs. imagine it. i will get there. without fail i will make it. il be so thin people will turn to stare and everyone will envy my lack of ass. as fucked up as it sounds i also want everyone to worry abut me... i want to give my mum something to fret about with her friends so she can have such a hard life and make herself out to be a martyr... her friends already got cancer and shes at uni but you can never have too much stress - an anorexic daughter would just op it all off nicely. they still ahve no idea tho. i eat swt fuckall all day until dinner when i clean the plate then purge if i can - they're so oblivious. i love the power it gives me. when im 98 everythng will be great. it even rhymes. STG 50... not far now.
AnnA
what isn't bearable is caroline being a complete bitch. im tryna understand that shes just under pressure and im often cranky at her so she deserves a chance to repay the favour but it really hurts...
s for you says: (9:05:33 PM)
urghhhhhh muh throat is all gluggy... remind me to do stats in study 2moro
"the night that waned and waned and brought no day" says: (9:06:06 PM)
lol as if u will u dnt even in class
with this knife i'll cut out the part of me, the part that cares for you says: (9:06:39 PM)
i resent that... i DIDNT in class just today for the first time this whole year... and have a lil faith please
with this knife i'll cut out the part of me, the part that cares for you says: (9:07:00 PM)
mind u if u tell me i wont im gona be more likely to just to prove u wrong so...
"the night that waned and waned and brought no day" says: (9:07:36 PM)
yea my faith is fadin n its nt like ive told u 2 do it b4 n got totaly ignored
with this knife i'll cut out the part of me, the part that cares for you says: (9:08:03 PM)
uhm sorry?
"the night that waned and waned and brought no day" says: (9:09:12 PM)
jst letin u knw i do hve reasons for stuf i do
im not even sure why it hurt me so much but it was just such a cutting unneccessary thing to say... hmm... guess im a little shambolic atm too
i hate school with a firey fucken passion, i hate every girl in that place i need to get away from them - even my "friends" suck majorly... and now caroline is bein a slag too? i mean throw me a frickin bone here. i want to just pick up and move to a completely new country where is don't have to worry about the stupid politics of secrets and gossip and peer pressure.
o she made it better =D
the night that waned and waned and brought no day" says: (9:14:17 PM)
sori dnt mind me jst 1 of those days
"the night that waned and waned and brought no day" says: (9:14:19 PM)
again
still feeling the pressure to have sex and party and drink and be beautiful and skinny and charismatic and talkitive... or have any freakin qualities that would make me superior. thats why they're all gona be so humiliated when im 98. thats my new goal. 45kgs. imagine it. i will get there. without fail i will make it. il be so thin people will turn to stare and everyone will envy my lack of ass. as fucked up as it sounds i also want everyone to worry abut me... i want to give my mum something to fret about with her friends so she can have such a hard life and make herself out to be a martyr... her friends already got cancer and shes at uni but you can never have too much stress - an anorexic daughter would just op it all off nicely. they still ahve no idea tho. i eat swt fuckall all day until dinner when i clean the plate then purge if i can - they're so oblivious. i love the power it gives me. when im 98 everythng will be great. it even rhymes. STG 50... not far now.
AnnA