frustrating

[suchascream]

i've been constantly thinking about food all day. i find it hard to concerntrate on anything else. i just ate half a lollipop without even considering the calorie content. i can't believe i'd be so reckless. i feel fat. there is no other way to describe it. it was my sisters birthday today so tonight we'll be having pizza and cake... the two things i find it virtually impossible to deny myself. iv already had 1 and a half peices of an extremely fattening chocolate cake her friend at school made for her. i need to learn to purge... and fast. there will also be various members of my extended family coming to stay with us for the next wee while... guess that means more people to watch me... hard to avoid breakfast etc... im not a happy camper to say the least.
design is due to tomorrow... i think it is achievable but there is a great deal of work to be done between now and then.
so anyway to sum it all up i feel like crap
peace.