Absolution [a Dean/Castiel Instrumental fanmix]
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Happy Birthday hereghost! I tried so very hard to get this finished in time but I'm like two hours late. I HAVE FAILED YOU! A thousand apologies. Butttttttttttt, I finally finished it! I was really excited when you asked for an instrumental Dean/Cas mic and at first I went kinda overboard. At one point this mix was actually 70 tracks long, and yeah, that was ridiculous. (I think it is possible that I have WAY TOO MANY FEELINGS about Cas and Dean, haha!) It is now 25 tracks long and, um, I hope you enjoy it. <3
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Absolution
a Dean/Castiel instrumental fanmix
Season Four
1. Vitamin String Quartet - Angel
Dean: Who are you?
Castiel: I'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from Perdition.
2. Zoë Keating - The Path
Castiel: I’m not a “hammer,” as you say. I have questions. I have doubts. I don’t know what is right and what is wrong anymore. Whether you passed or failed here. But in the coming months you will have more decisions to make. I don’t envy the weight that is on your shoulders, Dean. I truly don’t.
3. Balmorhea - Candor [Daytrotter Version]
Castiel: My superiors have begun to question my sympathies.
Dean: Your sympathies?
Castiel: I was getting to close to the humans in my charge. You.
4. Christopher O'Riley - The Rip
Dean: This is simple, Cas. No more crap about being a good soldier. There's a right and there's a wrong here and you know it. Look at me! You know it. You were gonna help me once, weren't you? You were gonna warn me about all this before they dragged you back to Bible camp. Help me, now, please.
Castiel: What would you have me do?
Dean: Get me to Sam! We can stop this before it’s too late.
Castiel: I do that - we’ll all be hunted. We’ll all be killed.
Dean: If there’s anything worth dying for… this is it.
5. Coldplay - Violet Hill [Instrumental]
Chuck: You guys aren't supposed to be here. You're not in this story.
Castiel: Yeah, well, we're making it up as we go.
Season Five
6. Vitamin String Quartet - Chop and Change
Castiel: I killed two angels this week. My brothers. I’m hunted. I’ve rebelled. And I did it, all of it, for you.
7. Florence + the Machine - My Boy Builds Coffins [Instrumental]
Future-Castiel: Are you saying we walk in straight up the driveway, past all the demons and the Croats and we shoot the Devil?
Future-Dean: Yes
Future-Castiel: Okay If you don’t like reckless, I can use insouciant maybe…
Future-Dean: Are you coming?
Future-Castiel: Of course.
8. Zoë Keating - Legions (War)
Dean: That was pretty nice timing, Cas.
Castiel: We had an appointment.
Dean: Don’t ever change.
9. Vince Pope - What Am I Saying
Castiel: I rebelled for this?! So that you could surrender to them?
Dean: Cas! Please!
Castiel: I gave everything for you. And this is what you give to me.
Dean: Do it. Just do it!
10. Michael Giacchino - Life And Death
Dean: What are you gonna do now?
Castiel: Return to Heaven, I suppose.
Dean: Heaven?
Castiel: With Michael in the Cage, I'm sure it's total anarchy up there.
Dean: So, what, you're the new sheriff in town?
Castiel: I like that. Yeah. I suppose I am.
Dean: Wow. God gives you a brand-new, shiny set of wings, and suddenly you're his bitch again.
Castiel: I don't know what God wants. I don't know if he'll even return. It just... seems like the right thing to do.
Dean: Well, if you do see him, you tell him I'm coming for him next.
Castiel: You're angry.
Dean: That's an understatement.
Castiel: He helped. Maybe even more than we realize.
Dean: That's easy for you to say. He brought you back. But what about Sam? What about me, huh? Where's my grand prize? All I got is my brother in a hole!
Castiel: You got what you asked for, Dean. No paradise. No hell. Just more of the same. I mean it, Dean. What would you rather have? Peace or freedom?
Dean: Well, you really suck at goodbyes, you know that?
Season Six
11. James Newton Howard - I Cannot See His Color
Castiel: Raphael was stronger than me. I wouldn't survive a straight fight. So I went to an old friend for help. But watching him, I stopped. Everything he sacrificed, and I was about to ask him for more.
12. Vitamin String Quartet - Somewhere a Clock Is Ticking
Dean: Castiel, hello? Possible loose nuke down here. Angelic weapon, kinda your department... you hear that, Cas?
Castiel: Hello Dean.
Dean: Are you kidding me? I have been on red alert, about Sam, and you come for some stupid horn?!
Castiel: You asked me to be here, I came, I-
Dean: I've been asking you to be here for days, you dick!
13. The Chemical Brothers - Marissa's Flashback
Castiel: Well, I'd come if I could.
Dean: Yeah, no, I-I get it. No worries. But, Cas, you'll call, right? If you get into real trouble?
14. Max Richter - Organum
Dean: You got to look at me, man. You got to level with me and tell me what's going on. Look me in the eye and tell me you're not working with Crowley. You son of a bitch.
Castiel: Let me explain.
Dean: You're in it with him? You and Crowley have been going after Purgatory together? You have, huh? This whole time.
Castiel: I did it to protect you. I did it to protect all of you.
Sam: Protect us how? By opening a hole into monsterland!
Bobby: He's right, Cas. One drop got through, and it was Eve. And you want to break down the entire dam?
Castiel: To get the souls. I can stop Raphael. Please, you have to trust me.
Sam: Trust you?! How in the hell are we supposed to trust you now?
Castiel: I'm still me. I'm still your friend. Sam...I'm the one who raised you from Perdition.
Sam: What? Well, no offense...But you did a pretty piss-poor job of it. Wait. Did you bring me back soulless...On purpose?
Castiel: How could you think that?
Sam: Well, I'm thinking a lot of things right now, Cas.
Castiel: Listen. Raphael will kill us all. He'll turn the world into a graveyard. I had no choice.
Dean: No, you had a choice. You just made the wrong one.
Castiel: You don't understand. It's complicated.
Dean: No, actually, it's not, and you know that. Why else would you keep this whole thing a secret, huh, unless you knew that it was wrong? When crap like this comes around, we deal with it... Like we always have. What we don't do is we don't go out and make another deal with the Devil!
Castiel: It sounds so simple when you say it like that. Where were you when I needed to hear it?
Dean: I was there. Where were you?
Dean: You should've come to us for help, Cas.
Castiel: Maybe. It's too late now. I can't turn back now. I can't.
Dean: It's not too late. Damn it, Cas! We can fix this!
Castiel: Dean, it's not broken! Run. You have to run now! Run!
15. Abel Korzeniowski - Drowning
Dean: Listen to me. Listen, I know there's a lot of bad water under the bridge, but we were family once. I'd have died for you. I almost did a few times. So if that means anything to you... Please. I've lost Lisa, I've lost Ben, and now I've lost Sam. Don't make me lose you too. You don't need this kind of juice anymore, Cas. Get rid of it before it kills us all.
Season Seven
16. Vitamin String Quartet - Sing For Absolution
Castiel: Dean?
Dean: What, you need something else?
Castiel: No. I feel regret, about you and what I did to Sam.
Dean: Yeah, well, you should.
Castiel: If there was time, if I was strong enough, I'd -- I'd fix him now. I just wanted to make amends before I die.
Dean: Okay.
Castiel: Is it working?
Dean: Does it make you feel better?
Castiel: No. You?
Dean: Not a bit.
17. Apparat - Goodbye [Instrumental]
Dean: He’s gone.
18. Fat Segal - Whitecap Widow
Dean: Cas?
Castiel: I remember you. I remember everything. What I did. What I became. Why didn't you tell me?
Dean: Because Sam is dying in there.
Castiel: Because of me. Everything. All these people. I shouldn't be here.
Dean: If you remember, then you know you did the best you could at the time.
Castiel: Don't defend me. Do you have any idea the death toll in Heaven? On Earth? We didn't part friends, Dean.
Dean: So what?
Castiel: I deserved to die. Now, I can't possibly fix it... So why did I even walk out of that river?
Dean: Maybe to fix it.
19. Maxence Cyrin - Where Is My Mind?
Castiel: And at best, I die trying to fix my own stupid mistake. Or... I don't die - I'm brought back again. I see now. It's a punishment resurrection. It's worse every time.
Dean: I'm sorry. Uh, we're talking about God crap, right?
Castiel: I'm not good luck, Dean.
Dean: Yeah, but you know what? Bottom of the ninth, and you're the only guy left on the bench... Sorry, but I'd rather have you, cursed or not. And anyway, nut up, all right? We're all cursed. I seem like good luck to you? What?
Castiel: Well, I don't want to make you uncomfortable, but I detect a note of forgiveness.
Dean: Yeah, well, I'm probably gonna die tomorrow, so...
Castiel: Well, I'll go with you. And I'll do my best.
Dean: Thanks.
20. Clint Mansell - Stay With Me
Castiel: Wake up. Good. We need to get out of here.
Dean: Where are we?
Castiel: You don't know?
Dean: Last I remember, we ganked Dick.
Castiel: And where would he go in death?
Dean: Wait. Are you telling me...?
Castiel: Every soul here is a monster. This is where they come to prey upon each other for all eternity.
Dean: We're in Purgatory? How do we get out?
Castiel: I'm afraid we're much more likely to be ripped to shreds.
Dean: Cas, I think we better- Cas?
Season Eight
21. Florence + The Machine - Cosmic Love [Instrumental]
Castiel: I ran away.
Dean: You ran away?
Castiel: I had to.
Dean: That's your excuse for leaving me with those gorilla-wolves?
Castiel: Dean -
Dean: You bailed out and, what, went camping? I prayed to you, Cas, every night.
Castiel: I know.
Dean: You know and you didn't... What the hell's wrong with you?
Castiel: I am an angel in a land of abominations. There have been things hunting me from the moment we arrived.
Dean: Join the club!
Castiel: These are not just monsters, Dean. They're Leviathan. I have a price on my head, and I've been trying to stay one step ahead of them, to - to keep them away from you. That's why I ran. Just leave me, please.
Benny: Sounds like a plan. Let's roll.
Dean: Hold on, hold on. Cas, we're getting out of here. We're going home.
Castiel: Dean, I can't.
Dean: You can. Benny, tell him.
Benny: Purgatory has an escape hatch, but I got no idea if it's angel-friendly.
Dean: We'll figure it out. Cas, buddy, I need you.
Castiel: Dean...
Dean: And if Leviathan want to take a shot at us, let ‘em. We ganked those bitches once before. We can do it again.
Castiel: It's too dangerous.
Dean: Let me bottom-line it for you. I'm not leaving here without you. Understand?
Castiel: I understand.
22. Vitamin String Quartet - Skyfall
Dean: I got you! Hold on!
Castiel: Dean!
Dean: Hold on!
Castiel: Dean! Go!
23. Michael Giacchino - Departing Sun
Dean: That was a bonehead move back there. You could have gotten yourself killed. Why didn't you wait for me?
Castiel: Well, I didn't get killed. And it worked.
Dean: And if it didn't?
Castiel: It would have been my problem.
Dean: Well, that's not the way I see it.
Castiel: Hey, everything isn't your responsibility. Getting me out of Purgatory wasn't your responsibility.
Dean: You didn't get out. So whose fault was it?
Castiel: It's not about fault. It's about will. Dean, do you really not remember?
Dean: I lived it, Cas. Okay, I know what happened.
Castiel: No. No, you think you know. You remembered it the way you needed to.
Dean: Look, I don't need to feel like hell for failing you, okay? For failing you like I've failed every other godforsaken thing that I care about! I don't need it!
Castiel: Dean. Just look at it. Really look at it…
24. Zoë Keating - Lost
Castiel: See, it wasn't that I was weak. I was stronger than you. I pulled away. Nothing you could have done would have saved me, because I didn't want to be saved.
Dean: What the hell are you talking about?
Castiel: It's where I belonged. I needed to do penance. After the things I did on earth and in heaven, I didn't deserve to be out. And I saw that clearly when I was there. I... I planned to stay all along. I just didn't know how to tell you. You can't save everyone, my friend... though, you try.
25. Christopher O'Riley - Waltz #1
Castiel: Your father... Beautiful handwriting.
Dean: How you feeling, Cas?
Castiel: I'm fine.
Dean: Well, I just - I - I know that when... I got puked out of Purgatory, it took me a few weeks to... find my sea legs.
Castiel: I'm fine.
Dean: Don't get me wrong. I'm - I’m happy you're back. I'm - I’m freaking thrilled. It's just this whole mysterious-resurrection thing - it always has one mother of a downside.
Castiel: So, what do you want me to do?
Dean: Maybe take a trip upstairs.
Castiel: To Heaven?
Dean: Yeah, poke around, see if the God squad can't tell us how you got out.
Castiel: No.
Dean: Look, man, I - I hate those flying-ass monkeys just as much as you do, but -
Castiel: Dean! I said no!
Dean: Talk to me.
Castiel: Dean, I... When I was... bad... and I had all those things- the... the leviathans... writhing inside me... I caused a lot of suffering on earth, but I devastated Heaven. I vaporized thousands of my own kind, and - I - I can't go back.
Dean: 'Cause if you do, the angels will kill you.
Castiel: Because if I see what Heaven's become- what I- what I made of it... I'm afraid I might kill myself.
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