On The Nature Of Daylight [a Buffy and Angel fanmix]
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It's so funny to think that Buffy and Angel have been one of my OTPs ever since I was nerdy little 11-year-old patiently waiting for Monday night each week, so many years ago...
This mix follows Buffy-verse canon from episode one until the season seven finale, with the exception of the last three tracks. Those ones tell the story of a reunion that happens sometime in their future. (And even though I used season 8 comic art for the album artwork, this mix doesn't have anything to do with the Buffy comics as I never really got into them. I do, however, think the comic covers are beautiful.)
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On The Nature of Daylight
a Buffy and Angel fanmix
1. Colleen - Your Heart On Your Sleeve
[Instrumental]
Angel: I saw you before you became the Slayer.
Buffy: What?
Angel: I watched you, and I saw you called. It was a bright afternoon out in front of your school. You walked down the steps... and... and I loved you.
Buffy: Why?
Angel: 'Cause I could see your heart. You held it before you for everyone to see. And I worried that it would be bruised or torn. And more than anything in my life I wanted to keep it safe... to warm it with my own.
Buffy: That's beautiful. Or taken literally, incredibly gross.
Angel: I was just thinking that, too.
2. Loney, Dear - I Tried To Talk, But Nothing Was Told
[Angel]
She's all too good
I know every stone
Stone on her street
I tried to talk
Really, I tried
But nothing was told
Angel: Don't worry. I'm not here to eat.
Giles: Buffy told me you don't feed from humans anymore.
Angel: Not for a long while.
Giles: Is that why you're here? To see her?
Angel: I can't. It's, uh... It's too hard for me to be around her.
Giles: A vampire in love with a Slayer! It's rather poetic! In a maudlin sort of way.
3. Bjork - Pagan Poetry
[Buffy]
I love him, I love him
I love him, I love him
And he makes me want to hand myself over
Angel: I have something for you. For your birthday. I... I was gonna give it to you earlier, but...
Buffy: It's beautiful.
Angel: My people -- before I was changed -- they exchanged this as a sign of devotion. It's a claddagh ring. The hands represent friendship, the crown represents loyalty... and the heart... Well, you know... Wear it with the heart pointing towards you. It means you belong to somebody. Like this. Put it on.
Buffy: I don't wanna do this.
Angel: Me either.
Buffy: So don't go.
4. Explosions In The Sky - Your Hand In Mine (w/strings)
[Instrumental]
Buffy: You almost went away today.
Angel: We both did.
Buffy: Angel... I feel like I lost you... You're right, though. We can't be sure of anything.
Angel: Shhh. I...
Buffy: You what?
Angel: I love you. I try not to, but I can't stop.
Buffy: Me, me, too. I can't either.
Angel: Buffy, maybe we shouldn't...
Buffy: Don't. Just kiss me.
5. Tom McRae - My Vampire Heart
[Angel]
So I curse you
My vampire heart
For letting me love you
Angel: Buffy…
6. Mirah - The Garden
[Buffy]
But you don't want me anymore
How can it be?
Look what you've done to me
Angelus: I got a message for Buffy.
Buffy: Why don't you give it to me yourself?
Angelus: Well, it's not really the kind of message you tell. It sort of involves finding the bodies of all your friends.
Buffy:: This can't be you.
Angelus: Gee, we already covered that subject.
Buffy: Angel, there must be some part of you inside that still remembers who you are.
Angelus: Dream on, schoolgirl. Your boyfriend is dead. You're all gonna join him.
7. Muse - Feeling Good
[Angelus]
Its a new dawn
Its a new day
Its a new life
For me
And I’m feeling good
Angelus: You can't do it. You can't kill me.
Buffy: Give me time.
8. Calexico - The Book and the Canal
[Instrumental]
Angelus: Passion. It lies in all of us. Sleeping...waiting... And though unwanted... unbidden... it will stir... open its jaws, and howl. It speaks to us... guides us... Passion rules us all. And we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love... the clarity of hatred... and the ecstasy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion, maybe we'd know some kind of peace. But we would be hollow. Empty rooms, shuttered and dank... Without passion, we'd be truly dead.
9. Imogen Heap - Have You Got It In You?
[Buffy]
Guard down
Floor's yours
Last man standing
Can we just get it over with?
Buffy: Hello, lover.
Angelus: I don't have time for you.
Buffy: You don't have a lot of time left.
Angelus: Coming on kind of strong, don't you think? You're playing some deep odds here. Do you really think you can take us all on?
Buffy: No. I don't.
10. Dinah Washington & Max Richter - This Bitter Earth / On The Nature Of Daylight
[Buffy]
This bitter Earth
Can it be so cold
Today you're young
Too soon you’re old
But while a voice within me cries
I'm sure someone may answer my call
And this bitter earth
May not be so bitter after all
Angel: Buffy? What's going on? Where are we? I-I don't remember.
Buffy: Angel?
Angel: You're hurt. Oh, Buffy... God. I... I feel like I haven't seen you in months. Oh, my God, everything's so muddled. I... Oh... Oh, Buffy... What's happening?
Buffy: Shh. Don't worry about it. I love you.
Angel: I love you.
Buffy: Close your eyes.
11. Loney, Dear - I Love You (In With The Arms)
[Angel]
Keeping me calm
Keeping me calm, like you do
I love you
I love you
Angel: I worry about you.
Buffy: I worry about you.
Angel: I'm getting stronger.
Buffy: Yeah, pretty soon, you won't even need me.
12. Laura Veirs - Shadow Blues
[Buffy]
There's a shadow beneath the sea
There's a shadow between you and me
I've learned that love is scared of light
Angel: Am I a thing worth saving, huh? Am I a righteous man? The world wants me gone!
Buffy: What about me? I love you so much... And I tried to make you go away... I killed you and it didn't help. And I hate it! I hate that it's so hard... and that you can hurt me so much. I know everything that you did, because you did it to me. Oh, God! I wish that I wished you dead. I don't. I can't.
Angel: Buffy, please. Just this once... let me be strong.
Buffy: Strong is fighting! It's hard, and it's painful, and it's every day. It's what we have to do. And we can do it together. But if you're too much of a coward for that, then burn. If I can't convince you that you belong in this world, then I don't know what can. But do not expect me to watch. And don't expect me to mourn for you, because...
13. Grizzly Bear & Victoria Legrand - Slow Life
[Buffy & Angel]
I think I know what's on your mind
A couple words, a great divide
Angel: I'm trying to do what's right here. I'm trying to think with my head instead of my heart.
Buffy: Heart? You have a heart? It isn't even beating.
Angel: Don't.
Buffy: Don't what? Don't love you? I'm sorry. You know what? I didn't know that I got a choice in that. I'm never gonna change. I can't change. I want my life to be with you.
Angel: I don't.
Buffy: You don't want to be with me? I can't believe you're breaking up with me.
Angel: It doesn't mean that I don't...
Buffy: How am I supposed to stay away from you?
Angel: I'm leaving. After the Ascension. After it's finished with the Mayor and Faith. If we survive, I'll go.
Buffy: Where?
Angel: I don't know.
14. Cricket - And So We Go Our Separate Ways
[Instrumental]
Angel: I'm not going to say good-bye. If we get through this- I'm just going to go. You understand? There is just too much to-
15. Anthony Rapp - Room to Breathe
[Angel]
There was barely room to breathe
Getting the skeptic to believe
That the goal wasn't to leave one of us broken
If it's true nothing gets close to you for fear of melting down
Then I've become the chosen one, an example for the crowd
Doyle: Let me tell you a little bedtime story.
Angel: But I'm not sleepy.
Doyle: Once upon a time there was a vampire, and he was the meanest vampire in all the land. All the other vampires were afraid of him, he was such a bastard. Then one day he's cursed by Gypsies. They restore his human soul and all of a sudden he's mad with guilt. You know, "What have I done." You know, he's freaked.
Angel: Oh, okay now I'm sleepy.
Doyle: Yeah, well it's a fairly dull tale. It needs a little sex is my feeling. So, sure enough enter a girl. Pretty little blond thing, vampire slayer by trade. And our vampire falls madly in love with her. But eventually, the two of them, well they get fleshy with one another, and the moment he...well I guess the technical term is 'perfect happiness', but when our boy gets there, he goes bad again. He kills again. It's ugly. So when he gets his soul back for a second time, he figures hey, he can't be anywhere near young miss puppy eyes without endangering them both. So what does he do? He takes off. Goes to LA, to fight evil and to atone for his crimes. He's a shadow. A faceless champion of the hapless human race.
16. Ane Brun - Shot My Heart
[Buffy]
I shot my heart
To let you go
I shot it down for you
But you don't know
Angel: I didn't want to stir things up.
Cordelia: You don't want to stir, but if my ex came to town and was all stalking me in the shadows and then left and then he didn't even say hello, I'd be...
Buffy: A little upset. Wouldn't you?
17. Hans Zimmer - Time
[Instrumental]
Buffy: Everything we did?
Angel: It never happened.
Buffy: It did! It did! I know it did. I felt your heart beat.
18. Ane Brun & Tobias Fröberg - Love & Misery
[Buffy & Angel]
You may go
It’s okay, restless as you are
Rest with me
I’m your love and misery
Buffy: I'll never forget. I'll never forget. I'll never forget. I'll never forget.
19. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club - The Toll
[Angel]
There was more then a break in the smiles
They rose and slowly they tired
As she turned and the moments were made
There were none that could prove where she lay
There's a calm in the stories now told
And the distance will always be home
Buffy: It's gonna be light soon.
Angel: I can stay in town as long as you want me.
Buffy: How's forever? Does forever work for you? That's a bad idea. I'm seriously needy right now.
Angel: Let me worry about the neediness. I can handle it.
Buffy: I told you. You better go.
Angel: I'm sorry.
Buffy: No. I'm so grateful that you came, Angel. I didn't think I was gonna be able to make it through the night.
Angel: Well, we still have a few more minutes until I have to go.
Buffy: Good.
20. Lissie - Call Out The Beast
[Buffy]
And hope’s so hard to find
When it gets in my mind
And no, it won’t improve
So tell me what’s the use
If I’m gonna lose
Buffy: I sacrificed Angel to save the world. I loved him so much... but I knew. What was right. I don't have that any more. I don't understand. I don't know how to live in this world, if these are the choices; if everything's just stripped away then I don't see the point.
21. Max Richter - On The Nature Of Daylight
[Instrumental]
Cordelia: She was the love of your life and she died. And - you weren't there when it happened. You couldn't help her fight. You couldn't save her. You couldn't die with her.
22. Loney, Dear - Harm
[Angel]
And I must have slept for many years
Cause I had forgotten how the mourning felt
I didn’t mind the danger at all
Angel: I am okay.
Cordelia: Then what's the problem?
Angel: That I'm okay. That losing Buffy didn't kill me, that I could deal with it. In all those years no one ever mattered, not like she did. And now she's gone. Forever.
Cordelia: And you're still here.
23. Poe - Haunted
[Buffy]
And I'm haunted
By the lives that I have loved
And actions I have hated
Spike: Well, I haven't been to a Hell dimension just of late, but I know a thing or two about torment.
Buffy: I was happy.
Spike: I don't ...
Buffy: Wherever I was... I was happy. At peace. I knew that everyone I cared about was all right. I knew it. Time didn't mean anything, nothing had form... but I was still me, you know? And I was warm and I was loved... and I was finished. Complete. I don't understand about dimensions or theology or any of ...but I think I was in heaven. And now I'm not.
24. Hawksley Workman - The City Is A Drag
[Angel]
My heart's broke down and in the dirt
I feel I'm dying slow and sure
So hide your passions in between
The daily grind and broken dreams
The city is a drag
The city is a drag
Buffy: Angel, what are you doing... don't even. I just want to bask. Okay, I'm basked. What are you doing here?
Angel: Not saving the damsel in distress, that's for sure.
Buffy: Oh, you know me. Not much with the damseling.
Angel: You got your share of distress, though.
Buffy: You heard?
Angel: I've got coverage on the whole thing. It's very gripping. It needs a third act.
Buffy: You have to leave L.A.
25. Jon Brion - Phone Call
[Instrumental]
Buffy: Because... okay, I'm cookie dough, okay?
Angel: Yet another curveball...
Buffy: I'm not done baking yet. I'm not finished becoming... whoever the hell it is I'm gonna turn out to be. I've been looking for someone to make me feel whole, and maybe I just need to be whole. I make it through this, and the next thing, and the next... maybe one day I turn around and realize I'm ready. I'm cookies. And then if I want someone to eat m -- or, to enjoy warm delicious cookie-me, then that's fine. That'll be then. When I'm done.
26. Feist & Ben Gibbard - Train Song
[Buffy & Angel]
It's so many miles and so long since I've left you
Don't even know what I'll find when I get to you
But suddenly now, I know where I belong
It's many hundred miles and it won't be long
Angel: Any thoughts on who might enjoy... do I have to go with the cookie analogy?
Buffy: I'm not really thinking that far ahead. That's kinda the point.
27. Basia Bulat - Little Waltz
[Buffy]
But you know that you'll always be my love
Stay for a while
While our leaves are still green
Please, for me
Buffy: Angel. I do. Sometimes... think that far ahead. We both have our lives, but...sometimes...
Angel: Sometimes is something.
Buffy: It'd be a long time coming. Years, if ever.
28. The Cinematic Orchestra - To Build A Home
[Angel]
Out in the garden where we planted the seeds
There is a tree as old as me
Branches were sewn by the color of green
Ground had arose and passed it's knees
By the cracks of the skin I climbed to the top
I climbed the tree to see the world
When the gusts came around to blow me down
I held on as tightly as you held onto me
Cause I built a home
For you, for me
Until it disappeared
From me, from you
And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust
Angel: I ain't gettin' any older.
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