get down?
show was ok, horrrrriiiibbbllleeee rape of tone in that place. you'd think that people would know how to use their amps before becomming a touring band. meh. saw some awesome kids there, and a lot of not so awesome kids. went to josh's after and kept it pretty clean and not too obscene. came home and relized im out 40 bucksand i did loose my wallet sometime during the night, so im guessing it was stolen. but enough of that. i need a job real bad. i know i keep saying this, but it is seriously comming down to the point where i cant do anything if i dont have a job because my parents dont give me money anymore and i need a car and i need to pay for $1800 worth of insurance a year wether i drive or not, so thats real beat. mark is moving on friday for good to god knows where, so we are also out a bassist. it should work out with the band, but it sucks that im losing a good friend. alex and dusty are my first two options and if they dont work out, i think evan would be down. i like jamming with evan, he knows his stuff and it always sounds good. we need a pa when alex gets back and i doubt this large cup of change would even remotely cover my end of that deal, so yeah, job is a must. my summer has been pretty boring, i have done some fun stuff, but it just seems lacking. im realizing more and more that i dont connect with the people i used to like look up to i guess, mainly some of the all stars. like i used to love hanging out with jernigan and jesse and like all those kids, but now it seems like if im not drinking of smoking, they want nothing to do with me and thats real beat, or if i want to hang out with them sober they always have other shit to do. i need some more positive role models in my life, but in this town it was hard to find a few years back, and even harder now. i try to guide myself the best i can, but an outside informant is always awesome to keep me in check. im rambling on and on and on, im done now, you can stop reading.