Erase-Rewind
I took this from banyan's journal. I don't know what to think but I saw everything differently afterward...
it all makes perfect sense (collage ii)
This is v. v. not cool. - I haven't done anything for them. - I felt withdrawn but happy. - I hope they don't say i've got death. - It's over! - before the beauty begins to fade. - I'm going to die - Goodbye everyone! - Yeah... this isn't a big surprise... - I will shower so many thanks upon thee - I would not have come home. - Naptime begins now. - It's good to be home - really, really, heartbreakingly good. - all I can think is "I can't be here" and "this can't be real." - I hate to admit it, but I'm scared. - he is incredibly androgenous and gorgeous and probably kinda insane... - i really want to talk to him about ::things:: - I'm really dumb... - Must not get fat. - i have a million stories to tell, and no attention span... - we sat on the dock looking up at the stars. - I just wish i wasn't so damn oversensitive around him sometimes. - Three more days. I'm really happy. Anxious. - I never understood why I was angry until I left. - cries and cries and she is shaking. - I mean, i'm just debating how much it's all worth it. - I told her I didn't understand why anyone would do such a thing. - I'm so excited. - That seems to be most of the people - So last night was much fun. - The best of both worlds - Note to self: Stop drowning sorrows - i hate my fucking life - Alright I'm totally not in the mood - Things are so much easier when you can't feel. - all i want to do is curl up into a ball and sleep. - No, really Sig, don't lie. How are you? - take it just for fun... - Feeling a little more sane tonight... - i cant wait to start over... - I hate myself, and I am so alone, and blah blah blah. - it's just frustrating that i don't care about money or looks. - i want/need/crave something beautiful. - I disappoint others and myself... constantly. - That about covers it. - Yes, yes, yes, yes, and yes... if only. - I'm not the person my brain keeps telling me I am. - I've been a raving lunatic for most of the past week or so. I apologize to those who have had to listen to me during this period of time.
good night.
it all makes perfect sense (collage ii)
This is v. v. not cool. - I haven't done anything for them. - I felt withdrawn but happy. - I hope they don't say i've got death. - It's over! - before the beauty begins to fade. - I'm going to die - Goodbye everyone! - Yeah... this isn't a big surprise... - I will shower so many thanks upon thee - I would not have come home. - Naptime begins now. - It's good to be home - really, really, heartbreakingly good. - all I can think is "I can't be here" and "this can't be real." - I hate to admit it, but I'm scared. - he is incredibly androgenous and gorgeous and probably kinda insane... - i really want to talk to him about ::things:: - I'm really dumb... - Must not get fat. - i have a million stories to tell, and no attention span... - we sat on the dock looking up at the stars. - I just wish i wasn't so damn oversensitive around him sometimes. - Three more days. I'm really happy. Anxious. - I never understood why I was angry until I left. - cries and cries and she is shaking. - I mean, i'm just debating how much it's all worth it. - I told her I didn't understand why anyone would do such a thing. - I'm so excited. - That seems to be most of the people - So last night was much fun. - The best of both worlds - Note to self: Stop drowning sorrows - i hate my fucking life - Alright I'm totally not in the mood - Things are so much easier when you can't feel. - all i want to do is curl up into a ball and sleep. - No, really Sig, don't lie. How are you? - take it just for fun... - Feeling a little more sane tonight... - i cant wait to start over... - I hate myself, and I am so alone, and blah blah blah. - it's just frustrating that i don't care about money or looks. - i want/need/crave something beautiful. - I disappoint others and myself... constantly. - That about covers it. - Yes, yes, yes, yes, and yes... if only. - I'm not the person my brain keeps telling me I am. - I've been a raving lunatic for most of the past week or so. I apologize to those who have had to listen to me during this period of time.
good night.