Post-Computer Freeze Messanger Re-enactment
I feel like your life got worse after I came along.
Well, it did, but it was just an extra shove down a path I was falling.
You know, you contributed to my life more than you realize.
How so?
Well, I took advantage of your emotions for quite sometime, and afterward I realized Ii can't do that in a relationship, and I haven't since.
Oh god, please don't ever say that again.
Why?
Because you are basically saying 'Thank you for letting me benefit from your intense pain. And that is an old song that I have heard in every relationship I have been in since you. And now, I just really don't/can't allow myself to care about anyone. Look, I am not hurt or offended. We are not the same people we were then. Just please, never bring it up again. It's buried; I've moved on.
Burial is not the same as acceptance.
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I step outside a room to see that an exit sign in the hallway has fallen and is hanging from the ceiling from a thin wire cord. Is it sparking? The red light bulbs flicker unnaturally (as if such a thing were natural in the first place). I wonder if I should notify someone, but after today, I think my life would benefit from the whole place going up in flames.
It will reach me before the alarm sounds.
Well, it did, but it was just an extra shove down a path I was falling.
You know, you contributed to my life more than you realize.
How so?
Well, I took advantage of your emotions for quite sometime, and afterward I realized Ii can't do that in a relationship, and I haven't since.
Oh god, please don't ever say that again.
Why?
Because you are basically saying 'Thank you for letting me benefit from your intense pain. And that is an old song that I have heard in every relationship I have been in since you. And now, I just really don't/can't allow myself to care about anyone. Look, I am not hurt or offended. We are not the same people we were then. Just please, never bring it up again. It's buried; I've moved on.
Burial is not the same as acceptance.
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I step outside a room to see that an exit sign in the hallway has fallen and is hanging from the ceiling from a thin wire cord. Is it sparking? The red light bulbs flicker unnaturally (as if such a thing were natural in the first place). I wonder if I should notify someone, but after today, I think my life would benefit from the whole place going up in flames.
It will reach me before the alarm sounds.