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[suburbanfiction]

I noticed that I never have anything good to say in this thing.

So then this is all I want to say.

I want out of this. I want out of my job. I want out of my house. I want out of the sadness. I want out of the fear of tomorrow. I want out of the lonliness of friends. I want out of missing my old self. I want out of yesterday. I want out of being in a writers block. I want out of your friends list. I want out of the pain of today.

Im not truely happy anymore unless I'm around certain friends.

Ill be like all the peoples journals I read and start posting song lyrics. "I want to run away"

I want out of remebering how happy I was in junior high. Which I wasn't. I want out of everything.

Everyone who use to be close to me went on with their lives, I did not. Ive been stuck in this piece of shit void since I can remeber.

I no longer care that my life is at stake. I dont have much of a life to lose, again with the exception of my family and certain friends.

I lost my cousin, I lost my neighbors, I lost my hope, I lost my friends, I lost my best friend, I lost touch with life, I lost my happiness. All I am now is pure destruction. All I do is break anything I touch.

I give up. I give up..

You can consider this to be the last time you see my icon.

Im leaving.

Dont comment telling me how im so emo. I dont care.

I tried High School, doesn't look too good. The Army is the last resort on my list of ways to find happiness.

I dont care who makes president. I dont care if I have to go to war. I dont care if I die. I just want out of being sad about everything and anything.

If you didnt read this I dont blame you.

I never have anything good to say in here anyway.