Sep 09, 2004 06:34
I'm trying my hardest to sink into that other moment of memory.....
I used to think that my feelings were so fucking useless...but..i kept getting reminders that love....love was only words that hung or swayed like nothingness....
To see words so intense...about someone you breathed in...It's hard....but so real......I keep reading letters we wrote to each other...and still wonder when...we dropped off....I keep smelling forever...as you sweep a paradise...a memory...that we never shared....
But this day...
you wish....
new thoughts
new beginnings
as if
we never
had a start..
I do wish
cry
stomp
on tomorrow
an wish
that
tomorrow
would begin
you were always
the actor
i read your words
they bled
through
my
cartoon
my
inconsistancies
what is love
when your hair's fixed
your jeans
are
as tight as could be
yes...
he fucked more
you saved none
he shit
as hard as shit could be
She wrote
her story
plastic tears
vinyl thoughts
high on mercury
love
could only be
pick a small word
death
is not literate
but you found
enough
to hurt me
why do i cry
you knew it
fuck you
for fucking showing it
death should be
the only sex you feel
but
i'm crazy
and you're special
and you can
ward off
the devil
that pulls your breath
inside me
and we swallow
the devil
and spit
out the angel
as you breathe
death
into me
and if heaven
was yellow
and vomit
was a rainbow
would you
come and
save ME?
noONE'S LOOKING
the sky hurts
the best seller
lost her
virginity
you thought
and cried
she killed
herself as
you cried
and heaven
never bled
like our dreams
we cried chalk
and gray sawdust
you never
mattered much
as i
killed you
in my dream