noisy night
I feel okay, but I just feel so lonely. two friends are home, another is at a conference. others are asleep. and I feel desperately lonely. and I want to call someone to talk the loneliness away, but that's silly, because I can't call people every time I'm left alone. besides, I don't even have anyone to call. and it's stupid silly everyone getting drunk night because college is dumb, and I think someone may have just thrown a rock at my window, mistaking my room for "charlie's". it's almost two and it doesn't even feel like eleven, and I've barely written a page and a half of my ten page paper due monday. and I have so many pages to read, and not enough time, never enough time. and I want to cuddle so badly but I'm awkward, so so awkward, and I want him to like me because he's sweet and has pretty eyes and a pleasant voice, and I think we'd get along well. but no no no no no I'm silly, too silly, and life is hard, not too hard, and now they're breaking bottles outside. college is weird and so am I, but in a different sort of way.