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anticipation, n.
ive always only ever hovered in the grey area. i'd have someone come along and tell me oh, you got attached. and i'd wait- for my body to react, for the neurons in my brain to spark. as if im supposed to hurt or cry or be angry or feel something specific. id just wait with tightness from my throat down to my gut, never knowing how to act or react. i'd enter a different shade of grey and never know.
disembogue, v.
i need to talk about it but i dont know what about, how to, or to whom. we are nothing, we were nothing. there is nothing to talk about.
ersatz, adj.
i was not a new bend in your road, only a 1-year detour.
ive always only ever hovered in the grey area. i'd have someone come along and tell me oh, you got attached. and i'd wait- for my body to react, for the neurons in my brain to spark. as if im supposed to hurt or cry or be angry or feel something specific. id just wait with tightness from my throat down to my gut, never knowing how to act or react. i'd enter a different shade of grey and never know.
disembogue, v.
i need to talk about it but i dont know what about, how to, or to whom. we are nothing, we were nothing. there is nothing to talk about.
ersatz, adj.
i was not a new bend in your road, only a 1-year detour.