the next chapter to be continued.
well, i felt like giving up on my project, and during Ryan's open class yesterday. then i seem to want to give up all the time. i guess good things come out of living in the next moment too huh. i believe and trust in the one thing's that real- that time will pass and i will pull through no matter what.
so, rushing the 5000 word essay during the recent weekend without much help from my members was frustrating. but, im finally done with this final group assignment for my Diploma and all that's left is to receive my certificate on the 3rd of June. yay! itd also be my last day at ISS Preschool- that i have mixed feelings about.
thereafter, all i want to do is drown myself in dance, art, language and music. but i reckon i shouldn't anticipate the coming months with too much keenness. it's always the same yknow- when the time ive been waiting for arrives and i dont feel any happier, any more relieved or at peace. there's no progression and im just left with an empty shell of wants, needs & wishes. im thinking the problem lies with me and trying to substitute the solution with the superficial, instead of fixing things, is only going to leave me feeling same ol' same ol' lousy me. then again, it's not that im doing anything to change that myself. meh