i didnt know it at fifteen.
it just hit me how much i've changed. i think differently, the principles that i live by have been altered with time. heck, i even dress differently! haha
i used to be fucking scared of change. almost my every action was burdened by the need to do "whats right". whenever im presented with 2 choices, i'd choose the "right" one that will prove my responsibilty/compassion/courtesy/whatever, instead of the other one whatever it may be. i never missed school, i hardly got into trouble. i go up on stage to receive awards in school, hoping it'd prove that im worthy-enough person. idk how it works but that's what i thought.
today, with no academic commitments [well, not exactly. im just not schooling right now.], im just trying to give everything a shot. i've been a fan girl, waking up early in the morning to queue for a fansign/ waiting at loading & unloading bays. i've worked in an office, been a receptionist at a pilates place, worked an entire day at a booth, worked in a kitchen, given out free condoms, been told to make a lot of noise while atop a party-bus and danced in public. lol. i have nothing to lose.
then again, maybe all these is temporary. perhaps embarking upon life in University will bring me back to square one. but for now,
WE LIVE FOR THE MOMENT! :D