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I've come to the conclusion that I'm no longer going to allow myself to feel like shit every time I see her. I'm not going to avoid her for fear of feeling things that I shouldn't. I'm not going to avoid certain friends or certain social situations she's involved in.
You know why I'm posting this publicly? I don't know either. I just need to get it out there. I'm tired of being cryptic or secretive. I'm moving on finally, because I realize I can't look or hope for something that's not there.
I would have liked to hang out at the apartments with everyone. I hate calling you all my friends but never talking to you anymore. Josh, Kenny, Thomas, Britni, Courtney, even Kristen. I hope we can hang out more, and that I won't be the odd man out. I miss talking to all of you.
You know why I'm posting this publicly? I don't know either. I just need to get it out there. I'm tired of being cryptic or secretive. I'm moving on finally, because I realize I can't look or hope for something that's not there.
I would have liked to hang out at the apartments with everyone. I hate calling you all my friends but never talking to you anymore. Josh, Kenny, Thomas, Britni, Courtney, even Kristen. I hope we can hang out more, and that I won't be the odd man out. I miss talking to all of you.