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I cant understand why I cant just be completely happy all around.
Not semi happy,
Not "Yeah Im fine, just a few things bothering me"
I just want to be completely happy with everything,
School,Friends,Family,Reletionships.
Or I just want one thing to be EXTREMLY awesome so I can just rely on that and be happy about it.
I just want life to work my way.
I know if I say this people will get mad,
But I feel like I have no one & no one really cares about how i feel.
I told lauren about my aunt and she went all weird and all "can i come over?"
I didnt want her to come over becuase I was scared if my aunt came back she'd be all weird again.
Life pretty much sucks always.
I really really want to be happy again.
I dont want to be pretending to be happy like before,
Errrrrrr...I hate this fucking..RAHHAHFHASDHGJAKFG
I think I should just give up on everything.
Maybe.
<3
Not semi happy,
Not "Yeah Im fine, just a few things bothering me"
I just want to be completely happy with everything,
School,Friends,Family,Reletionships.
Or I just want one thing to be EXTREMLY awesome so I can just rely on that and be happy about it.
I just want life to work my way.
I know if I say this people will get mad,
But I feel like I have no one & no one really cares about how i feel.
I told lauren about my aunt and she went all weird and all "can i come over?"
I didnt want her to come over becuase I was scared if my aunt came back she'd be all weird again.
Life pretty much sucks always.
I really really want to be happy again.
I dont want to be pretending to be happy like before,
Errrrrrr...I hate this fucking..RAHHAHFHASDHGJAKFG
I think I should just give up on everything.
Maybe.
<3