tio's

[subtexts]

you give me a buzz
like awaking from a hopeful dream

the silences between us feel uncomplicated

detangled pauses, looking away

you said you wanted someone to sit with, not needing to talk
and i wanted to be that person

i don't need to be drunk
sobriety is the new heightened reality
daring to look at you without flinching
without feeling inadequate and ugly
without reference to myself

if i were more in love
this bar wouldn't seem so alien
or is that the lie i tell myself