Ax chop
I had my first ever phone interview today, and to say it went not so good would be an understatement. My speech was HORRIBLE, and it took me 5 minutes longer to answer the only open-ended question the recruiter asked me. I lost my breath, blocked, had tons of phrase repetitions, and needed to say "whew, i'm sorry" a couple times and start over. So many times I wanted to just give up and slam the phone down, but I plowed through it until the end. I'm just so frustrated, because I spent all day today practicing time and time again, calling most of the people on my cell phone contact list and doing mock-interviews. This has taken my confidence down a peg, but I'm still not going to let it bring me all the way down. I realized that I need to change the intensity of my speech exercises, and challenge myself way more-- because what I was doing obviously wasn't enough. This is the second huge wake-up/check yourself call I've had in just as many weeks, and both of them have brought a new form of motivation into high gear. I'm tired of this shit, and it's time to finally bring out the sword and pull on the big boy pants. I'm kicking this speech thing in the ASS, and slamming every single interview from here on out...